mimesociety

It's about time I updated this, eh?

So I'm assistant directing another show. Just like last year at this time, the play is being performed in a competition.
I'm pretty amazed at how far the kids have come... and then again... they are missing the most basic point in theater which is to project!
Their overall volume needs great improvement.

Anywhoo. . .

Happy late Valentine's Day everyone.
Happy president's day? I remember I got that day off from work, but after working a triple I wasn't sure why.

I have a lot of trips planned this year.
It's a good thing AND a bad thing.
Good because I can get away and see people... or not see people.
Bad because I need that money for bills and what not.

Now some of these trips are predetermined and I HAVE to go to them.
3 weddings. 1 of which I am a groomsman. (1st time doing that.) which means that the bachelor party in vegas... I have to attend. I'm not gambling though. Give me free drinks all night and we'll be good.

I'm helping my friend drive to North Carolina for his National Swim Meet. We did this last year.
Go back a few posts and read what I had to say about girls from NC.

We're doing it again this year, but we're going to be in a hotel downtown.
Also, one of my old friends just moved down there a couple weeks ago for work and we get to see him.
I'm pretty stoked!
However, my friend (the Coach) left it open for one of our other friends to come along on the trip.
I feel this is going to be a time bomb waiting to explode. He's got no filter and little sense of decency. Which means we'll probably be killed in the streets of Charlotte.
I like him... he's just a bit much.
and he's definitely going to take the leisure out of this trip.

Ho hum.


Then I have my fraternity ball in May sometime.
a female friend of mine from college said she'd love to go if i'd fly her from california.
I'm debating that.

Then I have 2 weddings in July.
1 for my friend TJ (although I lost the invitation and can't remember the date!)
and the other for my cousin. Which luckily I have a date for. One of my LONG time friends from college said she'd be my date. I can't wait for that one. She's a peach.
Speaking of... she lives in NYC and was visiting friends and such in my neck of the woods and stayed over my house one night. we have the type of relationship where we can sleep together and NOT "sleep-together".
It's good and bad. Especially since we were both talking about the months long dry spells we've both had.
I love that girl she's just a great ball of awesome. I could totally live with her. (as a roommate)

She may even be coming to one of the other weddings I have to go to this year. Awesome!


in other news...

My friend's ex girlfriend contacted me for the first time in over 6 years.
we started chatting about life and what not and she told me her BF that she's living with has cheated on her multiple times and she has clear evidence. However, she won't leave him. She says that needs to give him just ONE more chance to not screw up. She cheated on my friend years ago and says that this is just karma and that she has to try to make it work and know that at least she tried and didn't give in so easily.
Anywhoo...despite all that we decide that maybe we should hang out after all these years because we're both pretty big nerds.
Did i mention I dated her best friend?
So the hanging out thing may or may not be a good idea, but I look at the good in people and try not to let that destroy other people's thoughts or feelings. I don't try to sway anyone's opinion of anyone else, because I don't need to.
So, recently, she tells me that the reason we haven't yet hung out is because she's had a super crush on me for ages and she'd feel guilty just hanging out with me after all she's said about her current BF.

Understandable... I guess.

Different girl story....

So there's this girl that I "dated" for a while after one of my really bad breakups with the long time ex.
She and I have remained friends and we call each other for advice. Sometimes we'll meet up for "coffee". (She drinks tea and I drink Hot chocolate... it's just easier to say coffee.)
So she's been having problems in her relationship recently . . . and come to find out it's a cyclical thing and happens every couple months or less.
Basically.... she lives on the Cape and her BF is in Boston. He's a very boring person. He stays in and reads books. (not that that's a bad thing. I love to stay in and read books sometimes) But he reads books all the time. Doesn't like to go out to the bar with her. doesn't really like to go out in public. And NOW.... he spends lots of time with his friend Morgan. (a girl). They take the T to class together. They HAVE class together. They go to the library together. Sure... it could be a friendly thing and nothing to make of it, however... there's a lot of little signs he's putting out that He likes her. I don't want to see my friend hurt, so I tell her that she needs to be careful... or just break up with him. So last week I get a text from her that says, "He just broke up with me. I don't want to be alone right now." Unfortunately (or fortunately) I was in Billerica with friends. I told her to tell me what happened. So she does. and we were supposed to go out for sushi together instead of coffee on Monday. So i say, if you dont want to get sushi, it's okay. She assures me she wants to.
okay. whatever.
So monday comes along and she and her BF are back together. She still wants to get sushi with me.
I go and pick her up and we go to the sushi place. I drink wine. She drinks wine. We talk about life and stuff and then get on the topic of what she should do with her boy.
Apparently she invited him, their mutual dating friends, and this girl Morgan to do something. that way it's in public, she can meet her, and get a sense at what's going on. He shoots this idea down.
I tell her I've been in his shoes and that he has feelings for this girl, but he doesn't know quite where they stand and so he keeps one foot in each door.
She doesn't like this and starts making excuses for him. [Desperation]
I just tell it to her as I see it. No bias.
We get to the car. It's very cold. I start it up and crank the heat.
This is when she tells me that if things were different she'd just jump me right in my car.
Granted the physical attraction between us is still there, and of course I told her that, but I restrained myself from doing anything that would put her in a worse place than she already is. Besides... I'd be a terrible friend if I did.
It's been a few days since. We're good, but she hasn't reported anything about her BF.
She'll just make comments like "I'm getting wet in the shower." or "I can't wait to take these clothes off."
I think she's trying to stir something up. Not sure, but I'm going to guess YES.

Oh well.


Why is it that the girls that want me are in relationships, and the girls I want are far far away?

Who knows.
What I do know is that I've become a little bit more confident and I've stopped looking for girls. I've stopped looking for love. I think it's a combination of things that contributed to me feeling this way.
I've been going to the gym almost everyday for 2 months. I haven't lost weight, but i'm losing some fat and gaining muscle.
I was never one for going to the gym, but i decided I wanted to be healthier and I wanted to be ready for the ULTIMATE (frisbee) season.
Actually, my friend who stayed over in bed with me told me when she saw me, "wow, you're getting beefy" or something like that. I said, "yeah. I've actually been going to the gym." "I can tell," she said.
It's very complimentary to hear that. And it wasn't the only place i've heard it.
Anywhoo... So I'm working out, eating better. (mostly) and I'm more confident in my actions. Therefore I'm not searching for love, but I will give as much love as I can to those who I believe deserve it.
Maybe one day someone will give it back.


or maybe not. :p


Currently people I'm attracted to:
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- my "ex" w/ bf (the one who has friend Morgan)
- a girl I met 2 months ago
- a (female) friend's older sister
- friend in Cali
- friend in NYC (slept over)
- one of my best friend's girlfriend (BUT... only in the way that I'd want someone LIKE her, not her)
- kind of attracted to friend in Boston. (not normally my type)
- this girl I met at the bar last week... she was in my gym.... (also not my type, but strange attraction to her)
- one of the personal trainers at the gym. (too bad she's 5 years younger and engaged)

These are all girls I find attractive. Do I want to date them?.... not necessarily. Do I want to sleep with them?..... not necessarily.
It all depends on the girl.



My belief is that I can offer person(X), this thing(Y), for (Z)amount of time. = (Y+X)Z / t
(and if I was good at math I'd probably make an accurate equation.) :p


Well... it's 1pm time for me to put pants on (or not), get out of bed (or not), and start my day!




Much love to all of you.
Sorry it has been forever.






ps. I'm going to make a GF application.
pps. & a FWB application.
ppps. & a NFTHOW (nerdy friend to hang out with) application.