mia

i got a letter from the government today...i opened it...it said they were suckers.

dont forget public enemy!

huh wha? what'd i miss? anyways hello and sorry i haven't said much in a while.check ya later

got the same problem. my cause is that i can't stop thinkin and got too much shit on my mind to worry bout. that and takin random naps throughout the day has destroyed my sleeping pattern.

i see you.

don't die mia wallace

Build her a cake or something.

Sorry to hear you're sick! Just keep coughing!!!

Are you getting better?

you should check out some genghis tron.

i am going to bed to tin hat trio.

+yes!

oh the pain. it is great!

glad you get to see the new work in march.

I'm certain that during the course of my 32 years, I've made mistakes and hurt people. Sometimes without even being aware of it, sometimes knowing there would be consequences. I don't think anyone's life just travels along on cruise without any road construction, honestly.

There were a couple of times when I asked myself quite seriously why I bothered. Sometimes "things" seemed like more trouble than what it's worth. Some of the choices I made were selfish, and many of them I still pay for today... even if that payment just means that someone I used to be close with is no longer a part of my life. Those are the saddest consequences of all, and coming to the realization of being to blame is a pretty lousy feeling.

And despite being a pessimist by nature, I am also continually curious about life in general. I am always thinking about what COULD be... tomorrow. That is what keeps me going, for the most part. Hope. Shit gets fucked up... but I always have hope. And my hope for today is that you always have some as well. We can't change what has occured... what we've done in the past. Can't even take back yesterday (and there's plenty of times when that'd be pretty desirable). Guilt... how to deal with it? Reconcile to the source of it. And even if that doesn't work, you can at least know that you tried. Time helps. Being aware of mistakes and attempting to not repeat them is the goal, I suppose. The emotional baggage is ours to deal with as best we can as humans. Hug your best friend. Talk about it.

Thanks for sending me the greatest comment I have ever received!!!! I laughed out loud!

You made my evening lots better...so I have to return the favor...and I will.


Have a great day and smile that oh soo intoxicating smile that you have!


Idaho is super lucky!

I found that I don't do too thinking about things too much. I get realllly depressed about it.

Especially when I think about how much time I've wasted doing a job I hate. Actually .. hate is not a strong enough word for how I feel about it heh. The problem is that at my age it's hard to get a job doing something you have no experience in. It's too easy to keep doing something you hate instead of changing things...

Lately I've been asking myself "what's it all for?". It only gets me down though, so I try not to question things too much. I'm sure the answer will come to me.

If you're wondering whether your actions have hurt people around you, or whether it's only in your head, maybe you should ask them.

Head up. Live for the here and now.

(sorry .. that was a bit long )

about the "bad" decisions, we do not need to repeat them and to repeat one over and over expecting different results when the yield is the same ... proves the insanity of it all.

What am I doing sitting here reading this .. I should be doing .................something .....

.........nahhhhhh .. fuck it .. what were you saying again?

Very interesting. But to further complicate things... would you actually recognize it when you discover what truly makes you happy, or would it be one of those things you can only see from the perspective of having lost it?

I don't have the answer, only additional questions.

air planes are scary.

almost hollow. like knowin yer mind is trapped in yer body yet in you know that the outside world is bound by laws and everything you try to do will have an opposing force pushing back.

did you survive?

hope the resolution is going well, I do my resolutions a day at a time

happy new year. see you in march.

i say we get a room at the cabana across from JD's just for the sake of trashing it. who's in?

Welcome back

Good to see your post.

Glad you are with us ... Keep coming back

i know lotsa things lame. but i'd like to hear yours.