It's funny how things happen in life. You pine over something for so long, you want it so badly and then when you get it, . . . . it's not at all what you expected.
Not at all.
It could be better, it could be worse - but you never thought it could be like this. It's strange. How your imagination skews your point of view - the reality of things.
I'm in WAY over my head.
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Right now I'm trying to be a better person, I mean - atleast someone I can be proud of being. I'm working diligently on my magazine - always trying to find new ideas to incorporate, trying to find ways to teach people good things, I'm praying that I get accepted to CSULB so I can get my degree and start plotting world domination, I do something on my 'to do' list everyday so I can't be lazy, when I feel angry - I try to smile, and when I start to cry - I try to laugh. And slowly, as time passes I feel a little better about being myself.
. . . . just thinkin.
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You know what?
I want to go to SF for prom. It sounds SO fun!! Maybe I'll just go and do the SG parties - and find my OWN prom out there that doesn't require tickets and fancy schamnsy dresses.
I'll ask the Derbster what he thinks.
I wouldn't mind riding the BART all day and feasting on candies from japan town. And then getting a strand of my hair braided by that guy who has all the pretty glass beads in Berkley.
hm.
Anyone want to suggest a cheap ass place to stay out there?!
Not at all.
It could be better, it could be worse - but you never thought it could be like this. It's strange. How your imagination skews your point of view - the reality of things.
I'm in WAY over my head.
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Right now I'm trying to be a better person, I mean - atleast someone I can be proud of being. I'm working diligently on my magazine - always trying to find new ideas to incorporate, trying to find ways to teach people good things, I'm praying that I get accepted to CSULB so I can get my degree and start plotting world domination, I do something on my 'to do' list everyday so I can't be lazy, when I feel angry - I try to smile, and when I start to cry - I try to laugh. And slowly, as time passes I feel a little better about being myself.
. . . . just thinkin.
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You know what?
I want to go to SF for prom. It sounds SO fun!! Maybe I'll just go and do the SG parties - and find my OWN prom out there that doesn't require tickets and fancy schamnsy dresses.
I'll ask the Derbster what he thinks.
I wouldn't mind riding the BART all day and feasting on candies from japan town. And then getting a strand of my hair braided by that guy who has all the pretty glass beads in Berkley.
hm.
Anyone want to suggest a cheap ass place to stay out there?!
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Do you own a magazine and what is CSULB?
I hope you are doing well.