mestiphopoles

i'm being fucked on a level that is so absolutely real that it can no longer be believed

click
click
click
like a broken switch
turned me off
but i'm still twitchin'

and i hear

drip
drip
drip
in the bathroom sink
yeah i'm beat down
but i'm still sinkin'

ow
my head hurts

oh
how nice
i have a lawyer now

"yes, that sounds good, but i'll have to speak with my attorney"

what in the fucking shitbag fuckin hell has fucking happened?

i used to live in new mexico
in a house on the side of a mountain
i could see a hundred miles
across the desert down below
i watched the sunsets
drank my wine
sang...
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kill
things
more
often

i feel like i'm inside of
something smaller than me

this is how it is
it is just like this

this is how it feels
it feels just like this

lost, fucked, destroyed,
ruined, blownout, and bungled.
but,
hopeful.

i don't have any friends.
used to, but not no more.
i think i'm a freak.

are there any freaks out there?