maxi

Thanksgiving has come and gone.
I didn't really feel like taking on all the cooking, but it's been so long since my mother and i have worked in a kitchen together, and the way i feel about life's longevity didn't permit me to wait for another occasion.
I was cooking a full feast for only four. Myself, Mother oldest niece and a friend whom i always invite over when i host any holiday dinner.
Ant spent the day with his family. I usually spend it with his family as well, But lately i have been feeling the need to be closer to my own.

My niece is 16 and gay. I think we knew she would be since she was 10. she seemed to have a boyish demeanor about her. part of me is glad that she is gay. In my head dealing with boys and her mother at 16 could pretty much lead to sure trouble, I'm sure she will find just as much heartache with girls, she just won't have to worry about getting pregnant, or the high probability of abuse that would most likely follow someone like her around, someone whom is looking to belong and find love.
It's easy for a young girl to fall into unhealthy relationships when she has had a shitty start to life at home. It's easy to settle for less than you deserve.

I'm going to try to start seeing my niece at least once a month.
i never really had a positive female in my life at that age. I did at the age of 14 get a BIG SISTER FROM THE BIG SISTER ASSOCIATION.
but at that time in 1984, my mom was very suspicious about the motives of the volunteers, and canceled the arrangements after about 2 visits, A pity.

I got other things to distract me right now...