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today i finally made an appointment for a physical check up. they didn't have anything til Feb 18. hope i'm still alive then. two days ago i felt like i was dying. i couldn't breathe and this dumb heart burns are coming back.

also today after work i will make the appointment for my tattoo. i showed judy the font i chose and she liked...
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fuck. what a day at work. more bullshit. i found out that my ex-whatever told this girl that i'm gay. i was fuckin' pissed of when they told me. so i asked the girl about it and she confirmed what i was told. even though i didn't talk to her anymore, i never talked bad about her even if there was a reason too, and...
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right now i should've been at the Yeah Yeah Yeah's concert damnit!!! we went to buy the tickets on sunday only to find out it had sold out. what luck.

ryan adams will be at the house of blues on march 10th. tickets go on sale on friday. maybe i'm being selfish, but i
wanna go alone. it's very personal, something i want to remember...
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today at work my boss walked in on me taking a dump. it was hilarious. the way he reacted: "Oh No!!! i don't want to see thiiisss!!!!!". and the way he walked out in disbelief. i think he felt embarassed. i couldn't stop laughing. i had gone to the restroom just to wash my hands so i didn't lock it. but then i kinda felt...
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today i met a cute girl at work. i initially went up to her 'cause she had some green pants with a bunch of band names on it. i wanted to check them out. from there we got into a good conversation and i ended up with her digits. i'm excited. i really want to get to know her better. yeah, yeah, enough about that...
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man, i just got back from visiting my friend jazmin(who was my high school love). it had been about 10 months since the last time. i was suprised to see that she had a baby. i still can't believe it. it was good to see each other again. this time she was more receptive than other times. it's kinda weird. i guess it's 'cause it...
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i kinda feel bad 'cause i know i, or what happened, made her feel bad. i'm talking about my ex friend or girlfriend, whatever she was. it all started last weekend at my weekend job. i had my best friend's name, judy, written on my hand. she saw it and by the look on her face, she was able to read it clearly. that look,...
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things have been kinda crazy lately. it's coming back to normal though. last night i had a weird dream. my dream was a video game and i was it's character. people were after me and i had to escape. i wonder why i had that dream...hmm

i've been wanting to move out of my mom's for a long time already. but if i do, i won't be able to help her financially 'cause the money that goes to her right now would be going towards my own rent and other expenses. who the hell would help her then? noone. this sucks. this is a big cause of my depression. i'm so...
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last night i told judy, my best friend, that i'm gonna tatoo her name on me. the tattoo has a lot of meaning and was inpired by a song i wrote her early this year. i explained to her how the idea came about and she got emotional. i heard her voice break. i'm still working on the design. i don't want to rush it....
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Don't touch my baby...i'll kill you!!!

i'm a bit worried for my best friend, judy. some guy is stalking her. it's seems very serious. she could'nt give me details 'cause she called me during her break. she's gonna call me when she gets off work. i bought her perfume for christmas. it's called Beautiful by Estee Lauder. that's the one she likes. i'm trying to...
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