okay folks, this one goes out to all the readers, but especially those who live in the live in the san francisco area....
i need your help, if you can.
i have an opportunity to do something that may be of interest to some of you. a friend of mine is a showgirl in san francisco, and is visiting hawaii right now. last night we...
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i need your help, if you can.
i have an opportunity to do something that may be of interest to some of you. a friend of mine is a showgirl in san francisco, and is visiting hawaii right now. last night we...
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some time has passed. i could say that ive been terribly busy, which would not be a lie neccessarily, but i think the real reason for my absence is that ive had alot on my mind but no clear way i wanted to express it.
well, armed with this icecream i feel like writing again. And since it happens to be the elusive friday the...
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well, armed with this icecream i feel like writing again. And since it happens to be the elusive friday the...
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pupnamedtwat:
That story jerked a tear from my left eye.
drpetervenkman:
so i'm reading all your journal entries because i just found out you have one now and this is one of the most amazing stories i've ever heard. i would've been a fucking wreck if that had happened to an animal of mine.
another windy day, the way the curtains billow ferociously makes me want to hollar "ahoy" and squint into the distant horizon.
all is resolved between my friend and I, it took very little actually for both of us to break down and say we felt aweful about the whole stupid thing.
a strange thing happened this week. i received an unexpected phonecall from an old...
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all is resolved between my friend and I, it took very little actually for both of us to break down and say we felt aweful about the whole stupid thing.
a strange thing happened this week. i received an unexpected phonecall from an old...
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lily:
Lovely, I've been waiting for you to start a journal for forever to put a voice to that beautiful face. your words rock.
Love, Lily
Love, Lily
bonneville:
Mary come back!!!!
so, sometimes you know when you are wrong. you know when your eyelids twitch and your throat falls into your uteris and you hug a pillow you are not particularly attached to.
you know that you fucked up when watching your cats eat your flipflops makes you want to either chug a 40 or scream "eat em, ok, im a bitch!"
the worst is when...
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you know that you fucked up when watching your cats eat your flipflops makes you want to either chug a 40 or scream "eat em, ok, im a bitch!"
the worst is when...
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bastardo:
I never admit when I'm wrong.
J/K, yeah I do.
Often.
Sigh.
J/K, yeah I do.
Often.
Sigh.
jena:
:hug:
:hug:
gee you folks can make a girl feel special. thanks for the overwhelming responses to the recent hawaii set. missy and i had a hell of a time doing that one in particular. it was shot at a place on the north shore of oahu called waimea falls. we drove up from honolulu in my car which was coughing up the last little bit of...
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proxydoxy:
Where to begin...
You are the reason I joined this site and the reason I joined again later!
Yours is a beauty that trancends this site. Not only are you gorgeous-- you also have an intellegence and poetry about you that isn't forced. This shows in your pictures and is underlined in red ink by your writing. There are very few women on this site who's journal entries don't cause me to wonder: "Would I be interested in what she has to say if I didn't know she was hot?" You are different. You are a writer who happens to be hot
You were absolutely right in supposing that beginning your journal would define you rather than limit you. They enlighten and entertain, which I am slowly realizing is harder to find the older you get. Write some books, darlin', you've obviously got them in you. You seem a facinating read....
You are the reason I joined this site and the reason I joined again later!
Yours is a beauty that trancends this site. Not only are you gorgeous-- you also have an intellegence and poetry about you that isn't forced. This shows in your pictures and is underlined in red ink by your writing. There are very few women on this site who's journal entries don't cause me to wonder: "Would I be interested in what she has to say if I didn't know she was hot?" You are different. You are a writer who happens to be hot
You were absolutely right in supposing that beginning your journal would define you rather than limit you. They enlighten and entertain, which I am slowly realizing is harder to find the older you get. Write some books, darlin', you've obviously got them in you. You seem a facinating read....
bastardo:
you live in hawaii? lucky punk. 
ha! gonna have a shower with a beer and no time limit!!!!yesssss
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rolaand:
I love shower and I love beer. I also am really slow at reading journal entries but I get up to speed sooner or later. This going to be my normal shower routine now.
drpetervenkman:
whoa! beer in the shower!? i do that too! and so does another friend of mine...it's one way we bonded. i had never met anyone that did that till i met her. it's a great way to unwind.
oops i was so mad that i wrote my new journal entry as a comment rather than an entry, so read through them and find mine. thats what i meant to write here.
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mandy:
yessssssssss i wanna see your art tooooooooooooooo!!!!!
photos
paintings
sculpture whatever.....
photos
paintings
sculpture whatever.....
xxyyzz:
a purly reasonable mind has no emotion in it. even the word itself has to do w/movement; many times this is an uncontrollable movement. as we all know (or find out i should say) this can be both a good thing and a bad thing. i think you can find out who a person truley is by watching/expeirencing their actions when they are emotional. so, considering a literal dumpster has no feelings, in that situatioin i'd beat the fuck out of the dumpster.
everybody cross your fingers for swami. shes really sick, keeps puking and spotting the rug. but i coulnt get a spot at the vet till tomarrow morning. im worried, but i think she''ll be ok cause she is still eating, but not alot..
ps i dont feel as pathetic today. Erin you are like a good toothbrushing after a bad vomit.
ps i dont feel as pathetic today. Erin you are like a good toothbrushing after a bad vomit.
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mary:
first of all, swami is okay, she had a bad fur ball caught in her intestines and pushing it out caused the vomit etc. but its back to normal now.
second:
i need a moment to rant.
could somebody please explain this to me:
if someone believes they have fallen "in love" with you, when you have never dated or told them you wanted the same, or encouraged obsession by not being honest about where you stood with the friendship, and it ends up that they do not get to live out the fantasy in their mind that was built on air, essentially....
how come YOU are suddenly the heartless, bonecrunching bitch?????
i have bent over backwards to preserve the feelings of a certain friend in my life, and yet today i was yelled at over the phone so convincingly, that i almost questioned whether or not i was his goddamn exgirlfriend, or cheating lover, or something.
not getting what you want in its entirety from someone you care about does not make them evil or responsible for your shattered daydream..if someone hangs out with you less often after you bombard them with blatent expectations every time they see you, you may want to sit down, smoke a cigarette, and ask yourself, am i being incredibly annoying? if you find yourself stalking around their apartment looking in the windows and imagining you see things going on in there that ARENT even happening, but find yourself calling 7 times at 4am to confront the person living there for what "is happening" and realise youve actually woken them up, YOU MIGHT want to take a hot showtr, relax your pulsing muscles, and ask yourself: AM I A CREEP??
but most of all if you react to their feelings and honesty in these ways or worse, you should really really ask yourself if you even know what real love is, and what it should be based on, which has everything to do with respect and understanding and trust, which you obviously have a very difficult time mastering.
marys final thought this easter:
if you hop two barbed wire fences and crawl through the mud in the dark to get some bagels from a dumpster and when you open it, its empty cause some other kids already cleaned it out, whats the point of beating the shit out of the dumpster? find another goddamn dunkin donuts.
second:
i need a moment to rant.
could somebody please explain this to me:
if someone believes they have fallen "in love" with you, when you have never dated or told them you wanted the same, or encouraged obsession by not being honest about where you stood with the friendship, and it ends up that they do not get to live out the fantasy in their mind that was built on air, essentially....
how come YOU are suddenly the heartless, bonecrunching bitch?????
i have bent over backwards to preserve the feelings of a certain friend in my life, and yet today i was yelled at over the phone so convincingly, that i almost questioned whether or not i was his goddamn exgirlfriend, or cheating lover, or something.
not getting what you want in its entirety from someone you care about does not make them evil or responsible for your shattered daydream..if someone hangs out with you less often after you bombard them with blatent expectations every time they see you, you may want to sit down, smoke a cigarette, and ask yourself, am i being incredibly annoying? if you find yourself stalking around their apartment looking in the windows and imagining you see things going on in there that ARENT even happening, but find yourself calling 7 times at 4am to confront the person living there for what "is happening" and realise youve actually woken them up, YOU MIGHT want to take a hot showtr, relax your pulsing muscles, and ask yourself: AM I A CREEP??
but most of all if you react to their feelings and honesty in these ways or worse, you should really really ask yourself if you even know what real love is, and what it should be based on, which has everything to do with respect and understanding and trust, which you obviously have a very difficult time mastering.
marys final thought this easter:
if you hop two barbed wire fences and crawl through the mud in the dark to get some bagels from a dumpster and when you open it, its empty cause some other kids already cleaned it out, whats the point of beating the shit out of the dumpster? find another goddamn dunkin donuts.
bald1:
so i guess this is the wrong time to tell you that i love you...very very much.
i am eating some cookies a sweet grandma in frankfurt made me. today i just feel disappointed in myself in an undefinable way. i feel quite redundant but not because im doing exactly what i want to be doing over and over. i dont have any food here im in the mood to eat, cept these, and they make me all introspective, chewing on places...
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flying_bunnies:
....there'd be days like this..mamma said... that is in my head now. I am new here, your sets are awesome. I am buzzed (ST Patty's day even though I have no Irish in me lol) I added you (and it's okay you're busy with 38 comments lol 
) and good luck on your latest entry ::hugs::
<3 Jen <3
) and good luck on your latest entry ::hugs::
<3 Jen <3
blackhearteulogy:
yes i was refering to you in my profile.. if i offended you, im sorry, ill take it off.if you want.
fuck you guys are way fastrer than me. i just got finished digesting all the comments, which are great but honestly its overwelming so dont be offended if i dont respond, just, write back agin?
he!!! swami is passed out on top of my comuters mouse so.... i think she wants some serious attention. ive scratched her head ever which way but she wants a...
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he!!! swami is passed out on top of my comuters mouse so.... i think she wants some serious attention. ive scratched her head ever which way but she wants a...
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walkswithbears:
this got accepted by the staff as a banner - hope you like
_tab:
Yay! I'm glad youre back
oh lord before i try to tackle the 123 comments, let me just saty my internet service has been down for a while.
right now, "when the going gets tough, the tough get going in playing on the radio. ha. moments: i slaped a philoly cheese steak to a telephone pole on the way home from my friends bar tonight. it was hiding in a...
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right now, "when the going gets tough, the tough get going in playing on the radio. ha. moments: i slaped a philoly cheese steak to a telephone pole on the way home from my friends bar tonight. it was hiding in a...
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bedheadchicken:
I like that you're keeping a journal.
birdie_:
try writing poetry, that'll really boggle your mind
I also hope you get to fulfill your dreams.