Thirty. Thirty...thirty. I repeat it to myself because I honestly can't believe that I am thirty. I've been thirty for a good half a year now and I feel no different. In my mind I feel 19 still...except for not being able to stay out all night and still make it to work the next day.
Thirty is that crossing over part. It's over the hill. You're really officially an "adult". I mean...it's hard to wrap your head around that. You contribute to society, you take care of yourself, you cant make excuses for stuff like you used to (well, you can but it looks really bad). People tend to be less forgiving when you make mistakes because you "should know better".
The parties are gone, the hanging out with friends every night is gone, the staying up till midnight is even gone. You have to be responsible. You have a job and sometimes other responsibilities such as children.
I always tell myself, "where did the time go?" Because it feels like yesterday I was sneaking into my parents office to play Everquest on the computer at 3am...and then still making it to highschool in the morning. It's like I woke up one day and I was thirty. Ugh.....thirty. I even hate saying it.
Some people say that thirty is the new twenty . That your life doesn't really begin until you hit thirty. I'm not so sure about that. But I suppose I'm still a new thirty. Maybe it takes to thirty one before I actually see the benefits of this whole adult thing. Because in my mind I'm still 21 (until I hang out with 21 year Olds and then I'm like yup...I'm 30.)
I've been told to "grow up" because I'm thirty and still play video games, collect toys and like comics. Ummm...I didn't know being thirty had to change who you are. I'll never change. That's part of me and I'll be coolest grandma ever for having so many kick ass collectible toys for my grand kids to inherit .
Thirty. Thirty. Thirty. I still don't like the sound of it, no matter how much I say it. I guess I just need to keep saying. Because when I'm thirty one, I'm gonna wish I was still thirty.
I'm officially a geezer, an oldie but goodie, an old timer, a cougar, a "doesn't she realize she's too old to be wearing that?".
What was i writing again? My old age has made me forget.
Ps: this pic is from my newest set that will be releasing at the end of the month :)
