mana

What I cannot write is what I feel, for what I feel is such a big deal. I feel the way you feel about those you have feelings for, I feel the same way they do if the feeling is returned, and I feel it feels pretty damn good, but at the same time that's not what I feel at all, it seems, because what I feel is the same sadness you'd feel if you felt the way I feel, I think, so I feel and the feeling doesn't sting like a bee, but it sure feels kind of like it, and sometimes it just feels worse and when it feels worse it pretty much is bad, and I do mean BAD! That's how I feel. I feel I feel. This is what I think I feel. This is what I feel I think. I feel!

And I think it might be his fault.