As I sit here watching Dexter and drinking coffee on my couch I can't help but realize how much I wish my life was different. I mean don't get me wrong, I love my job and so far everything else but can't help wish i had made better choices in my life in the past. One thing about reflecting on your past is that you can't help but remember some of the bad, the crappy, and the lonely times. My true self inside has been wanting to get out and have a blast but with the real world of bills, car payments and other crap suck up all of the money that I make I can't get the tattoos and have the fun the I would love to have. I know that this as my first blog post is kind of hodge podge, all over the place, and well depressing but getting things off your chest may not always be exact and to point, we as humans are flawed and I can't help to fit i to that mold. So I would like to say hi and I hope you enjoy the crazy and strange that I have to say in the coming months.