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madilynn

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Oct 16, 2013
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So you guys know, I've been desperately trying to post for days now! Since the last blog. I was trying to photo blog since the last blog! LOL omg okay.

HERE WE GO!

So when I haven't been doing this...

I've been attempting to do a lot of this... (SMILING!)

I have also spent a lot of time working on fun new ways to do my hair, thanks in part to my bestbian Aki who has waaaaaay too much time on her hands at work to pour through pinterest... ;P

Alas, these are likely to be the last few long-hair-don't-care photos for a while, cuz I'm rockin' the shoulder length for now. We shall see what happens with all that, but for now... eh!

My hair is a brighter but darker red, very striking, with new photos coming soon. I just did an awesome photo shoot with @Azera with my new hair color and length, so stay tuned for that!

In other news, a set we thought was MIA just resurfaced, perfectly in time for a stellar little contest on zivity! The contest is sexy in public, and oh my goodness... In KC there's a big long bridge from the West Bottoms up into downtown, and a stretch of empty no-mans-land between the train tracks by the city (and under the bridge) and the road at the bottom of the bridge... I found a nice busy street, in sight of the rush-hour traffic if they bothered to turn their heads far enough to the right (most of them were too busy honking at the car in front of them... lol) to start out. There was a building with lots of traffic just across the street from where we shot, just barely out of sight (sort of) behind a loading dock. ;) The new set, already approved and awaiting publishing on zivity is called "COME AT ME BRO!" in honor of the silly over-sized shirt I took off during the set... ;)

To the left, me rockin' out my custom painted Art Monster hat, DVS MINX, on a night full of fun and silliness. Did I mention my bestbian boobie-trapped my house that night? Holy moly! She ended up stealing all light bulbs in reach, or duct taping over any switches she could, in order to guarantee complete and utter darkness for the super ridiculous and probably dangerous obstacle course she laid out through the house. I managed to find a sequined fedora with flashing lights along the band, so I navigated this insanity with on a tiny flashing strobe light. It was fun, it was silly, holy fuck dude. Wild night!

I miss the bright and colorful me.... The one that had neon colored hair and a wild party to go to almost every weekend. Why can't I just have enough money to not work on weekends so I can actually see my friends? Jeeeeeeeeeeeeeez! Remember this me? I do....

It is really hard to look at the picture above this one, (more recent) and then compare it to the one directly above... and realize that I've had to clean up a bit and 'normalize' myself in order to survive. The girl above is still fun and silly and in love with bright colors, but the girl right here took it to the next level!

If anyone has any ideas on what I can do for a living that doesn't involve a severe pay cut and reclaim the silly bright and bubbly me that I used to be... not so long ago... LET ME KNOW! PLEASE! I want rainbow dreads or at least wild-colored hair again.

From the above, see below... This is the face I have to put on... oh so normal... This is the face that patrons of the Hustler Club in Washington Park, IL adore and want to spend money on.. Gah. Even gettin' my SG swagger goin' doesn't seem nearly as awesome all normal-fied...

I don't think I'm ugly or any less special, of course. But I do think I've had to bland myself down to suit society and the bull-hocky of trying to find a job or do something with the Bachelor's Degree I'll have come December... Wish me luck, I guess. I'm considering getting HR certification in addition to my degree, or maybe just sayin' FUCK IT and doing an accelerated massage therapy class and opening my own spa or whatever... Super artsy and focused on healing energy, crystals, colors, sound therapy, etc.

What do you guys think? Would I be happy a bland little minx telling people they're hired, to quit fighting and act like they're not in high school anymore, pretend not to notice how badly employees are being screwed over by various companies involving their benefits packages... etc...

What to do, what to do...

My BA in Sociology involved a lot of research on Marketing, and great with Promotions, and no one beats me on alternative healing and artsy crafts. Rainbow dreadlocks in a room full of color and art with soothing sounds and relaxing scents might be just what the doctor ordered... I hear these days many massage therapists are quitting to do other things because they do not have enough clients. Much like the strip club industry, massage therapists are hurting due to being in the luxury/entertainment category. Will this economy recover any time soon? Would it be a waste of my time and money to get into classes or something like that? Should I do both, assuming I can put together the proper capital, and see which job gets me a job first? I am fully confident I can do anything I put my mind to, including be a bored and bland little minx, but I prefer to be actively stimulated by change and activity rather than chaos, negativity, and stacks of paperwork. Heeeeeeeeeelp!

Thanks for being patient with me while I learn the new blog setup! I hope it wasn't too horrible to navigate!

madilynn:
Do you guys see my photos as broken all of a sudden? gah... 
Oct 18, 2013
tactical:
They aren't showing up for me
Nov 6, 2013

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