m0use

fuck.

so that last entry which i edited, yeah. let's just say i did bad things that i can never do again. ever.

and now i'm sicker than hell, psychotically depressed, alone for the holidays, and one of my babies (my very old rat girls) is probably going to die before the morning. She is so sick and old i don' think anyone can do anything for her and she's moving lethargic now and i'm going to be alone and have to deal with his too, plus another bad work situation and oh god. You don't know what i did. It was bad. I am low. Very low. And everything is getting worse. If you come looking for me, you'll find me in the bathtub with the set of kitchen knives.

and, oh, god, oh...