(is there splendour? i'm not ashamed.)
i'm very very far behind in all of my online dealings, yes i am. I still haven't left any of the comments/replies to any of the people i've wanted to in the past at least four journal posts and couple of weeks of message board postings. But if you consider how long it's been since i've replied to an email, you'll see that i'm not doing all too badly.
Birthday sucked ass hard, predictably. Only thing that kept me from hanging myself was beautiful big box of toys and presents from the girlfriend, with such thought and love put into them and funny little notes that i cried, and realised how much i missed/needed/wanted her.. and really i've been doing a lot more of that lately, particularly since i went back home to CT for a night... and also since i've taken up drinking. I tend to rally on loudly about my hot canadian asian girlfriend when i'm drunk, and wallow in thinking of her and missing her and get very "baby baby baby, i didn't mean it about us, i really do loves ya baby, i do." Except only without the embarrassing emails or postings or anything. Which i think she might actually appreciated at this point. but anyway, so when i felt and thought that way completely SOBER, i knew that everything was better and this thing was totally a "go" again, and she's got tickets to come see me first weekend of august. Yep.
I think i had more to update on, but i've forgotten.
I'm still pouting and whimpering and crying over how awful i looked at the SGBoston event. I know! I should get over myself already. But i'm not trying to get compliments or reassurances, unless you are reassuring me that you believe i don't always look that bad. All i'm saying is look my cam pics, and then look at those pics (or your memory) and you tell me. The person that was at that event would never be able to say "20 more pounds lost and a decent digital camera, and i'm applying for SG". That person could just say, "Well, i'm sorta cutish. Love me? please? Dear god, don't hate me,,," Actually, i say that anyway.
I'm so overtired. I apologise profusely for this post.
i'm very very far behind in all of my online dealings, yes i am. I still haven't left any of the comments/replies to any of the people i've wanted to in the past at least four journal posts and couple of weeks of message board postings. But if you consider how long it's been since i've replied to an email, you'll see that i'm not doing all too badly.
Birthday sucked ass hard, predictably. Only thing that kept me from hanging myself was beautiful big box of toys and presents from the girlfriend, with such thought and love put into them and funny little notes that i cried, and realised how much i missed/needed/wanted her.. and really i've been doing a lot more of that lately, particularly since i went back home to CT for a night... and also since i've taken up drinking. I tend to rally on loudly about my hot canadian asian girlfriend when i'm drunk, and wallow in thinking of her and missing her and get very "baby baby baby, i didn't mean it about us, i really do loves ya baby, i do." Except only without the embarrassing emails or postings or anything. Which i think she might actually appreciated at this point. but anyway, so when i felt and thought that way completely SOBER, i knew that everything was better and this thing was totally a "go" again, and she's got tickets to come see me first weekend of august. Yep.
I think i had more to update on, but i've forgotten.
I'm still pouting and whimpering and crying over how awful i looked at the SGBoston event. I know! I should get over myself already. But i'm not trying to get compliments or reassurances, unless you are reassuring me that you believe i don't always look that bad. All i'm saying is look my cam pics, and then look at those pics (or your memory) and you tell me. The person that was at that event would never be able to say "20 more pounds lost and a decent digital camera, and i'm applying for SG". That person could just say, "Well, i'm sorta cutish. Love me? please? Dear god, don't hate me,,," Actually, i say that anyway.
I'm so overtired. I apologise profusely for this post.
hell! if I had a hot Canadian Asian girlfriend, I'd be flying around town in one of these little bi-planes with the banner hanging off the back declaring " I HAVE A HOT ASIAN CANADIAN GIRLFRIEND!!!"
forgetfulness is also a sure sign of....something...what was I talking about?
take yer apologies (apologies/ apologize?) APOLLOCIZE! the new and latest weight loss craze amongst the Greek Pantheon! (sorry...)
and stuff 'em...right in your ear!
best fortune cookie I ever got said "Never apologise...your friends don't need it and your enemies wouldn't believe you anyway."
*hugs*
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