lylee

i hate crying. i know this might sound a bit dramatic but you know when you lose someone that means a lot to you? and you keep yourself busy by doing other things that are supposed to make you happy. but when you really think about it nothing makes you happiest than being with this one person... then you realise that it's over and that's not going to happen. i can honestly say i've never felt like this before and i dont know how to deal with it. and knowing that soon i'll never see this person, and chances are wont speak to them again really hurts way too much

i guess i've been going through a lot lately and everythings becoming real. i've spoke to my boss about quitting, i've been speaking to companies about shipping my stuff. have been applying for jobs back home. then i realise my london life is over.also the one person i thought would be with me in my life forever doesnt care about me.

i have to go.. im just crying and my nose is blocked. i hate this

i want my mom