lylee

now i know i cant change peoples minds, but i wish i could. mind you i was hoping that i wouldnt have to. but i guess i should let things be. i dont want to, its hard. but if thats how it has to be then thats how it has to be. man i say that now but.. meh. im dumb

i couldnt sleep last night. too much going on in my big fat head.accidently txt someone by accident. well sent it to the wrong person.. soooooooooo now i bet my friends think i ignored them. he he i didnt

so who wants to buy me a camera? i want to go out and take photos of everything.. i'm just in that mood...

im so upset lately.
certain friends and family are making me feel bad because i'm not there, my school is fucking me about.. and i lost something important to me. seems like nothings going right. i love london a lot, but i think its time for me to just leave. i really dont want to and its going to be fucking scary leaving. but i have nothing here anymore but a lousy job.... i honestly thought i was going to end up living here forever. i'd be happy doing it. i like it here.. well. cept for all the tourists. he he he. but its close to everything you need... some things including spain and germany. he he. i dunno what to do.. i know what i want to do. but im afraid that isnt an option anymore. but on a good note my sister is out of hospital.i dunno if i said anything about that on here.. dont wanna bore anyone too much with my boring life

anyways time to go
night!