Wow.
I feel like utter shit right now.
I went all the way to the ACC, and then I went through those doors and got hit with the worst panic attack I have ever suffered through...all those people...and they were all so very loud....I wanted to hit everyone. Instead I started crying and shaking uncontrollably, almost passed out, and had to go home. So now I'm missing out on seeing something I have wanted to go see for a very long time, and I'm a douchebag and left my fiance there to watch it by himself, and I feel all kinds of low. I am so angry with myself right now. This phobia of large groups of people is something I HAVE to get help for. I'm just so pissed off right now, at myself and my body.
Oh, and if you're going to post anything involving advice or telling me to 'cheer up', don't bother. I'll just get angry and put you on my ignore list. I HATE it when people give me unsolicited advice.
I feel like utter shit right now.
I went all the way to the ACC, and then I went through those doors and got hit with the worst panic attack I have ever suffered through...all those people...and they were all so very loud....I wanted to hit everyone. Instead I started crying and shaking uncontrollably, almost passed out, and had to go home. So now I'm missing out on seeing something I have wanted to go see for a very long time, and I'm a douchebag and left my fiance there to watch it by himself, and I feel all kinds of low. I am so angry with myself right now. This phobia of large groups of people is something I HAVE to get help for. I'm just so pissed off right now, at myself and my body.
Oh, and if you're going to post anything involving advice or telling me to 'cheer up', don't bother. I'll just get angry and put you on my ignore list. I HATE it when people give me unsolicited advice.
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if it helps, I'm obsessive compulsive and routinely count or touch things needlessly when stressed. not quite a panic attack, but the same lack of control and embarrassment occurs.
so yeah. don't cheer up. be.