It’s a Tuesday in February. At home, I hear it’s grey and cold. The snow shows dirt stains from footprints and car exhaust. The sun is but a distant promise.
There was a small earthquake in Hamilton.
I am not home. Instead, as I write this, I’m topless by the pool at SGHQ, wind rustling in the citrus trees. The cheerful yellow of the lemons echoes the bright joy I feel in my body right now. Los Angeles is soul food.
I’ve been here since Saturday, a delayed plane making me rush to get ready for my stint go-go dancing at Bar Sinister. It was so lovely to see @kentkaliber again, and take my place on the gogo cubes. I love the rush of the stage. I feed on the energy of the crowd like a cheap succubus, drawing life from stares and smiles. It was my second time at Sinister and it felt like coming home. I know when I leave, a piece of my soul will stay in L.A.
I’m staying at SGHQ with @lovesick, a beautiful friend who lives down the street from me that I met the last time I was here. We organized a shoot fest with @rosedarling and @belladona yesterday. I shot my first SG multi since the Canada Day set a lifetime ago.
I shot my first set for SG in 2004. In a year, it’ll be 20 years I’ve been a suicidegirl.
I took a break for a while because of a contract I signed with an old job, and when that ended I’d been so long away from this site that I didn’t know how to integrate myself again. So much had changed.
But much like my early days with SG, once I searched for community I found it. This site has gifted me so much. I’m making new friends. And something I’d almost forgotten about SG was how it attracts such powerful, creative, beautiful people. Every model I have met through this site is an inspiration.
I leave Thursday morning. It feels too soon. There will be claw marks on the inside of the plane when they drag me back to Hoth.
I’m already planning my next trip back to this wonderland and the magical people that reside in it.
Tell me where YOUR soul lives. Is it where your physical body resides? Or is it somewhere else?
Xoxox
Love Lucy
