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2 things:

1) i hate asking people for advice because i always feel like i know more about my situation than anybody so i should be better equipped to find the answer than anyone. but im going to break with that trend tonight and ask you, all my buds out there in SG-land, for some help.

2) this entry might be kinda long.

so there's this girl who i've been working more or less side by side with for the past 7 1/2 months. she's my boss (the manager of the thrift store i work at) and over the last few months i've spent a lot of time with her and really grown to like her a lot. she's funny and sassy and really cute and we make each other laugh like no one else can. i found out last friday that she's leaving on sept. 24th to take another job which of course initially surprised me and quickly made me pretty depressed and sad. the only time i have hung out with her outside of work (not including a housewarming party at her house several months ago) was back in late july when she had to give me a ride to and from work for a couple weeks because my car was dead. we had some beers and played pool at this little bar thats actually part of the building i live in. we had fun and kind of said that we should do it again, but we havent since then. we had plans to a couple of times but things that were a bit more pressing came up at the last minute and she cancelled. in the last few weeks every time i mention it she says things like "we'll go soon" or "i cant this week because i have to do blah blah blah". i know she does have a pretty busy lifestyle and thats the way she wants it, but sometimes i wonder if she just doesnt want to go. we seem to really click sometimes at work and often flirt like there's no tomorrow, but then every time i make mention of the idea of getting together OUTSIDE of work, she seems reticent. she has been casually seeing this other guy for about a month and a half, but from everything ive heard, it doesnt sound that serious, and she has been known to be something of a serial dater. i often think that im probably not her type because she's sort of ambitious and a tad preppy and i think is looking for a man who's like that too. i, meanwhile, am 28 years old and still working at a crappy, low-paying job, even though im going back to school in the fall and will eventually become a teacher (im also not preppy). on the other hand, we do seem to have some things in common and it just seems like we really like each other, so i dont know why "types" should make a difference. i would really like to keep in contact with her after she quits the store because some of my favorite parts of any day are the times we get to spend working together and i would be sad if we didnt get to see each other at all anymore. i have her cell phone number and i asked her the other day if we would still hang out after she left and she said "yeah, if you call me", but i dont know if that was total bullshit or if she actually would hang out with me if i called her. part of me thinks that the reason she doesnt want to do things with me outside of work now is that since she's my boss, it wouldnt look good if we were seen carousing together, but i dont know. i wish i could shut off the problem-solving part of my mind sometimes because it is endlessly coming up with scenarios of what might happen if i do this or dont do this as well as possible reasons behind why she does what she does. and its fucking driving me nuts! i just have this sinking feeling that once shes gone, thats it. i wont see her again. i know that wouldnt be the end of the world, but it sure would suck a good little bit of ass for awhile. i guess my question is what do i do? should i just shut up about getting together until after she quits and then call her? should i still see if she wants to do something before she quits so that we can kind of establish the idea that we're friends outside of work and then it wont be so weird for me to call her after she's gone? see, calling her would be kind of a new thing, because right now if i ever want to ask her something or whatever, i can just do it at work, but once she's gone any contact is pretty much going to have to begin with a phone call. before you tell me im the biggest retard youve ever had the misfortune to waste several minutes of your life reading the journal of, let me just say that im normally a totally chill guy (to the point that doctors have said my blood pressure is bordering on dangerously low). its just that every once in a while i meet a girl who totally makes me act like a buttmunch and worry in ways i never do otherwise. that being said, bring on the wisdom.