I can't sleep.

I broke up with my boy a few hours ago.

Although it had been on my mind a little while, i always talked myself out of it...or something so good would happen, that i'd be mad at myself for even thinking it.

But tonight i took the plunge.

And it broke my heart.

Completely.

I've never felt so awful.

It's going to be the weirdest week of my life without him, as i'm taking this short time to really feel what it's like to be all on my own again since March last year.

I turned 20 a few days ago...and i probably too old to be messing about like a little 16 year old like this
I should make my mind up.
But I'm taking time.
And having space.

I need a think.

Meanwhile here's some pictures to cheer me up and make me happy from the recent nights out i've had.

Christmas day and a crafty/ drunken ciggy



Out with my besties just before new year



My best friend

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Clearly excited about my teeny bowl of olives



Drinkies back at my friends apartment



Clearly stealing this coat



NEW YEAR:

I don't always have a fag on



It was her house party







Love her!



Fun



The stroke of midnight..and i did a happy wee in my pants!



20TH BIRTHDAY:

Me and Amy in Rock City



This boy is one of my all time faves



I got sparkly heart-shaped sunnies for my birthday



A fave girl, my boy...and some mime people



Me and my wife




Sorry to bore you with this photo fest! I'm just trying to take my mind off things.


p.s. listening to Jane Doe on full blast really helps Stick abit of converge on and join me in dancing in your panties