Last night I was ready to give up on me & Inuyasha (aka Gabe). He kept telling me he had mixed feelings & that there was another girl in his thoughts. I wanted to hang on, but I thought maybe I had to let go. I couldn't force something that wasn't right. Just as I was about to tell him that he was free to...
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i got up at noon today. that's early for me. ever since gabriel has been home, he has let me sleep till 2 or 3pm, but today i sent him out early to do some job hunting. we're broke, really broke & bills are not going to stop coming. we're already behind on our power bill. $400 to cover 2 power bills, $200 to cover...
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thefreak:
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turbulence:
thinking of you!
yesterday was the first day i got out of the house by myself since gabriel has been home. almost instantly, the air felt different. the sun seemed to shine a little brighter. see, it's hard to explain...but i feel like when i'm in this relationship (perhaps any relationship), that i am trapped. then once i finally get time to myself, i find myself preoccupied with...
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thefreak:
Best of luck. 
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turbulence:
Such a cute pic
i got boxing gloves today! they are pink & the proceeds went to the BCF (breast cancer foundation). that makes me SO happy. i am a big supporter. i had to sit out from boxing class for the past 2 days because i was so sore from the first day, but i'll be back at it tomorrow or Monday. tomorrow night is the party, so...
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bairdduvessa:
ilove that pic
turbulence:
Boxer girl 
i guess i haven't posted in a while. i haven't had much online time. gabriel doesn't like me to get online & he's not working yet. my bank fucked me over last week, so now i have to get to town in time to sign up with Compass Bank. i hope they do a better job handling my money. i started boxing class today with...
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bairdduvessa:
wait? what? yo aren't allowed to see people?
polarbear:
You MUST know that what you are saying doesn't sound right.You may not believe it but there is someone out there who you could fall in love with who wouldn't treat you like a piece of property!! Sounds to me like he's immature and insecure so that's why he treats you that way. Either he needs to get the fuck over that shit like now(he won't) or you need to cut your losses(finally) and let him go! You deserve SO much better sweetie 
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bairdduvessa:
best of luck
thefreak:
The beach cures all.
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i don't want to lose any friends. my friends mean the world to me. this is no overstatement. i know Alex does not read my blogs, but i wanted to say here & now how important his friendship is to me. whether he knows it or not, he has really been there for me over the past month & longer, helping me through the troubles...
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things are so crazy lately. i just found out last night that 2 of my aunts have been sneaking and reading my blogs & then gossiping about it to my mom. it's not cool. i know i put my life out there, but it's mostly for my own logging purposes & 2ndly for helpful comments &/or advice. now my mom wants me t either move...
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turbulence:
Just to clarify - I know this is not her. It just made me think of her
thefreak:
Boob!
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i went to my family doctor yesterday. i explained to him about my heart & my panic attacks & my rage. i left there with 4 prescriptions & plenty of samples. i only had enough money to get my Lortabs filled. i will try to borrow some money ($100) for the rest. the rest includes: medicine for IBS, for parasites, & for anxiety. the samples...
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turbulence:
Well he's a doc after all. I guess it will have to do until your clinic appointment
love_suicide:
pix from June
something is wrong with me. i don't know what it is exactly, but i keep having rage episodes. every time i talk to my mother i start clenching my jaw & my fists. i start yelling & threaten to punch her. this all started about a month ago. it has affected damn near everyone i know & love. i know i have to restrain myself...
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bairdduvessa:
your children are beautiful.
i'd get your chest examined
i'd get your chest examined
thefreak:
Get the help you need.
-TM
-TM
june 15th: overslept (till about 3pm). got up & frantically got showered, dressed, packed for Six Flags, & got out the door. went by Sally Beauty Supply for some bleach & pink hair dye, met Nikki @ Wilhagen's, she sprayed my hair pink, met up with Alex. hung out with Alex for a while, did some Addy, he & i left for Bham. met up...
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thefreak:
Wow, busy.
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turbulence:
Happy Birthday!
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Maybe thats not the case here but it still makes me angry....