Now I realize that I am going to be alone for a long time. Anyone whom I attract is interested only in sex. I am attracted to few people and those ignore my existence for the most part. It seems if I want any type of intimate companionship, I need to become someone's sex toy.
This is utterly depressing. Definitely crying to let out the... Read More
I am staying as I look for full time work to replace the two part time jobs.
Active in Toastmasters and doing well in their program.
Stepmother bought my train ticket home for Christmas.
Will be paying off one of my credit cards sooner than anticipated.
Looking at laser eye surgery after said credit card is paid off.
My grocery job is making me cry. They schedule me sometimes when I am unavailable and sleeping. When I point it out, supervisor makes me feel like shit. I need two jobs to make ends meet unfortunately.
Working two jobs now. Week one of training at new job is done. two days off and then seven days on next week plus new job is midnight shift. Week 1 - 60hr Week 2 - 70hr. After these two weeks, it'll go "normal' to 30-40hr/wk between the two jobs.
I am a sore panda. Knees and feet demand better shoes and more weight loss.... Read More
I had my medical interview with the military today. I am "healthy" but not fit. The Warrant Officer called me out on my shitty (read: non-existent) push ups and questioned me about why I believe I'd be successful if I returned to the CF. Strangely, I did not take offence. I accepted the criticism, talked about turning my life around, and remarked that I wouldn't... Read More
My "friend" dumped me via text today. It's a bit depressing. He is a recovering alcoholic so this may have to do with his life changes and i cannot fault him for that. i may have a new friend on the hook but I am not optimistic.