Oh beans! So I signed up for this summer chemistry class, which is crazy hard, that I need for my major. I thought it started on Monday the 7th until I got online at work yesterday to get the room number and junk and found out that it started at the beginning of this week. It is a two semester class crammed into six weeks so missing two days means missing alot. Plus, I have no lab partner now . So my life has officially began and it will not let up anytime to soon...here's how things are gonna go;
-from now until July 15th I have chemistry for 6 hours a day for 4 days a week (plus homework )
-need to find a job to cover the next two months until I move. I'm trying :gasp: Starbucks since it might be good to learn to make coffee if that is the sort of places I'm gonna try to work at when I move, and then I won't feel so bad about up and leaving a big corporation right after they put in the time/money to train my worthless ass.
-this monday go to orthopedic surgeon, once again, about knee problem. Maybe see if he will just cut it off this time and get it over with before my insurance runs out.
-get my holy molars/wisdom teeth pulled next Friday so I will sort of be drugged up for that weekend
-Post July 15th, start looking at places in San Francisco to move into by August.
-have 23rd birthday on July 22 and more than likely have a nervous breakdown or just cash in all the chips and go completely "bats in the belfry" crazy. Hell, might as well be sooner than later.
-Find a job in the city (haha...good luck) during the month of August.
-Start school again on August 25th at SF State.
:sigh:
Crying while sitting down in a hot shower is very therapeutic. It just sucks that it takes the build up of a near nervous breakdown to let it all go. But I'm sure there is gonna be much more where that came from though.
into these twisted months i plunge without a light to follow
but i swear that i would follow anything
if it would just get me out of here.
and so you get six months to adapt
and then you get two more to leave town.
in the event that we do adapt we still might not want you around.
and i fell for the promise of a life with a purpose
but i know that that is impossible now...
...i give myself three days to feel better
or i swear i am driving off a fucking cliff
because if i can't make myself feel better
then how can i expect anyone else to give a shit
and i scream for the sunlight or a car to take me anywhere
just get me past this dead and eternal snow
because i swear that i am dying, slowly but its happening
so if there is a perfect spring that's waiting somewhere
just take me there and lie to me and say it's going to be alright
its going to be alright, yeah you worry too much kid,
its going to be alright.
if winter ends - bright eyes
-from now until July 15th I have chemistry for 6 hours a day for 4 days a week (plus homework )
-need to find a job to cover the next two months until I move. I'm trying :gasp: Starbucks since it might be good to learn to make coffee if that is the sort of places I'm gonna try to work at when I move, and then I won't feel so bad about up and leaving a big corporation right after they put in the time/money to train my worthless ass.
-this monday go to orthopedic surgeon, once again, about knee problem. Maybe see if he will just cut it off this time and get it over with before my insurance runs out.
-get my holy molars/wisdom teeth pulled next Friday so I will sort of be drugged up for that weekend
-Post July 15th, start looking at places in San Francisco to move into by August.
-have 23rd birthday on July 22 and more than likely have a nervous breakdown or just cash in all the chips and go completely "bats in the belfry" crazy. Hell, might as well be sooner than later.
-Find a job in the city (haha...good luck) during the month of August.
-Start school again on August 25th at SF State.
:sigh:
Crying while sitting down in a hot shower is very therapeutic. It just sucks that it takes the build up of a near nervous breakdown to let it all go. But I'm sure there is gonna be much more where that came from though.
into these twisted months i plunge without a light to follow
but i swear that i would follow anything
if it would just get me out of here.
and so you get six months to adapt
and then you get two more to leave town.
in the event that we do adapt we still might not want you around.
and i fell for the promise of a life with a purpose
but i know that that is impossible now...
...i give myself three days to feel better
or i swear i am driving off a fucking cliff
because if i can't make myself feel better
then how can i expect anyone else to give a shit
and i scream for the sunlight or a car to take me anywhere
just get me past this dead and eternal snow
because i swear that i am dying, slowly but its happening
so if there is a perfect spring that's waiting somewhere
just take me there and lie to me and say it's going to be alright
its going to be alright, yeah you worry too much kid,
its going to be alright.
if winter ends - bright eyes
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I don't see why you'd have a nervy-b about your 23rd. I'd give a helluva lot to be 23... I mean, your life <i>begins</i> in your 20s.
Don't worry about the apartment hunt. I found that there are LOTS of places available for decent rates, and not just those posted on craigslist. But make sure you get a credit check done. Every place wants one.