When it comes to girls, I still feel like I'm 16.

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I'm 33...and this terrible with girls...lame, I know. So I just spent a lovely evening with a beautiful young lady. We had dinner, then went back to her place and played chess. I know, wild and crazy, right?

So here's the deal with her. I met her at work, she's a nurse not actually employed with my facility, but part of an agency that fills in holes in the schedule. So, no, we don't actually work together. She just turned 31 and recently broke up with her boyfriend. From what I hear, they were living together and pretty serious. She doesn't have many friends, so I'm trying to be that first and get her involved with my friends...at least on game night. She likes playing D&D and that's what we do, so we're all trying to get together and have her part of the group.

My deal? Well, I'm a chicken I tell you, a giant chicken. Seriously though, I have trouble being forward and direct. Yeah, yeah, you can tell me to just grow a pair and go for it, but if I could "just" do that, I wouldn't be here yammering on to you about it. Anyway, I haven't been exactly going out of my way to find a girl and it's been several years since the last prospect. Yeah, I said "years." And that whole thing just ended with me being told I was "too fucking nice," and had a door slammed in my face. Needless to say, that was the last time I spoke to that girl there hasn't been much on the horizon for the last nine years or so.

And here's where we are now. I've grown up and not really the same person I was since that door slammed in my face. I've grown up a bit and I know I just have to just talk to her and let her know and I want to. It's just a matter of getting the words I want out at an appropriate time. She's an awesome girl. Not too girly, funny, and just fun to be around. I want to be her friend and more, but I don't want to pressure her. They've only been broken up a couple of weeks. I don't know what my chances could be, but I also don't want to miss my chance. I just want to tell her how I feel and find out if she feels the same, but also give her whatever time she needs.

Well, if anyone actually reads my garbage, and have any words of wisdom, by all means, please share.

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sivart:
Yeah, the kicker is that we had something like an hour long conversation on the phone the day before and everything seemed to be going really well, so the whole rejection thing really seemed to come out of nowhere.
lonewolfd:
Wow, that's pretty shitty. It may not make it feel any better, but something tells me you dodged a bullet with someone like that. This girl from a decade ago was fairly upfront about how she felt about people being nice to her, but I kept hanging out with her and being me, so I'm sure the door slamming in my face was coming. Not for a good reason, but it was coming. I was still in college and in my 20's all before the real world hit. Back when I thought just being the good guy, the knight in shining armor, with a certain amount of patient persistence could get me the girl. These days I'm more of the anti-hero, my armor's a bit rusty, but I think the patience is still there. And I'm okay with where I am now. The nurse and I had breakfast together a little while back...the first time we hung out together outside of work. That's when I first really got to know her better. She has a delightful personality and her since of humor is much like mine.

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