It could be the holiday blues, but I'm not enthused about anything. At all.
There's a holiday party at my dojang on Friday. My best friend asked me if I'm going to invite the guy I'm dating. I don't think I will. I don't want to. I'd rather stare at my ex and feel badly when he doesn't pay attention to me.
I have gained an entire clothing size. Honestly, I see no unhealthy amount of fat, only muscle, but this is still not OK. I'm training a ridiculous amount, and it makes me good at what I do, but it's not like I'm a pro athlete or anything. I have to decide whether I want to be strong... or small. I'm having difficulty coping with this and difficulty with restricting my food, which if it gets out of hand, will make me unable to do martial arts. I don't want that.
For Christmas this year, I want a new body that is somehow miraculously super strong and tiny.
There's a holiday party at my dojang on Friday. My best friend asked me if I'm going to invite the guy I'm dating. I don't think I will. I don't want to. I'd rather stare at my ex and feel badly when he doesn't pay attention to me.
I have gained an entire clothing size. Honestly, I see no unhealthy amount of fat, only muscle, but this is still not OK. I'm training a ridiculous amount, and it makes me good at what I do, but it's not like I'm a pro athlete or anything. I have to decide whether I want to be strong... or small. I'm having difficulty coping with this and difficulty with restricting my food, which if it gets out of hand, will make me unable to do martial arts. I don't want that.
For Christmas this year, I want a new body that is somehow miraculously super strong and tiny.
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It means you can protect yourself and in the long run will have a healthier body.
The winter blues is a real thing, sometimes we just have to roll with it
From my experience, the best remedy for perking up when you're not into a party is seeing someone there that gets your juices flowing. Maybe you should reconsider inviting the guy you're seeing.
I was feeling like shit when I arrived at a holiday party last night. When i saw that my friend Mata was there and she smiled and gave me a big hug, everything seemed okay with the world.