lola

"The pain is being replaced by an ugly, stark, black depression. Ah've never known such a sense ay complete and utter hopelessness, punctuated only by bouts ay raw anxietey. It immobilises me to the extent that ah'm sittin in the chair hatin a tv programme, yet ah feel somthing terrible will happen if ah try tae switch ower. Ah sit burstin fir a pish, but too feart tae go up tae the bog in case thir's something lurking on the stairs. Sick Boy hud warned us aboot this, and ah'd experienced it in the past masel; but nae amount ay pre-warning or previous experience can fully prepare ye fir it. It makes the worse alcohol hangover seem like an idyllic wet dream."