My friend, my lover my everything, but yet we are still in limbo. We fight like a couple, we support each other like a couple, but I haven't seen her in over a year. We talk daily on the phone, in fact I spend hours with her on the phone. Taking the next step isn't easy. My finances are a mess due to under-employment, medical bills and student loan debt. She has a son and while she has said she believes we can make things financially work, but I am afraid to take the chance that I can't contribute to our finances.
I'm considering quitting teaching, the rewards are no longer outweighing the benefits and I'm no longer to make ends meet with it. But what do I do, where do I go? How do I find away to contribute?
She has faith, I'm not sure I do, but she takes me where I need to go, not where I want to go.
