littlebutloud

so after pulllin the all nighters workin at the grouphome... and on top of it working at price rite.... i was beat this morning. i knew withall the caffine in my system tho i would not get any sleep so i said to myself.... self,,,, yes i often refer to my own being
self... i should take seagar swimming today. its a nice day.. and i kinda blew him off the other day .. i took him. but for like 10min. that was it.. so i figured today was a good day.
i wouldnt have gone til almost noon tho so i sat in the living room and quietly watched tv.
well when mom woke up she comes in an goes "so im figureing you havent heard..." well obviously not... lol
then she proceeds to tell me the story

apprently my dog seagar was fine all yesterday.. did his nightly routine.. dinner.. then outside.. then back inside for left overs cuz hes always the first one done eating.. then back outside with everyone else.... then inside for bed. but before they all follow my parents into thier room. he usually would lay down at my momma's feet at her comp.
well he did and she felt him shaking. she thought it was weird so she looks down and his eyes had like rolled back into his head. my poor dog was having a seziure and hes only like 4 or 5 years old.. and NO physical health problems... yeah
so they call the vet and GUESS WHAT>.. they are all closed for the holiday weekend.. the nearest emergancy vet was in chesire. the whole car ride he had a full on seizure... thats about 30min. by the time they got their they apprently did like the animal planet thing and strapped him to a gurny and such. he was bleeding from the mouth and the blood had rushed to his skin... come to find out from that vet.. that if another vet that was closer was open.. they could have saved him. but in order to stop that long violent seziure he was having.. they had to give him something to put him in a coma. the vet said that it would take about 4 days and about 5000 dollars to attempt to bring him back and fix him.. but thier was no garuntee that he would ever be normal.. not that he was normal to begin with.. haha
but my rents dont have that kind of money so we put him to sleep....
damn vets... just one couldnt be open nearby right... thats how it works.
i tend to make sence of everything to make it all ok... and i cant make sence of this one.. for the first time.. thier is no explanation and i thnk thats why it hurts so much. he was a golden lab mix..... and everyone that knows him knows that he loved everyone... poor baby... im soo depressed...
hmm i should put up the good pic of him i took