I'm still alive. Just been super duper busy lately with work.
let's recap. I've work everyday since Dec. 4th and my next day off is on Thursday but Thursday is a kinda special day for because...It's gonna be my 21st birthday! FINALLY! It's here! Now I get to go clubbing at the nice clubs and get wasted legally!
....even though I don't really drink...or party...
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let's recap. I've work everyday since Dec. 4th and my next day off is on Thursday but Thursday is a kinda special day for because...It's gonna be my 21st birthday! FINALLY! It's here! Now I get to go clubbing at the nice clubs and get wasted legally!
....even though I don't really drink...or party...
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r3x:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, YOUSE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, YOUSE!
ultimatelewser:
Happy Birthday, hun 
nementh:
I have no idea who that is, but that damn Miley Cyrus song from the Bolt pre parade thing gets stuck in my head all the time.
nementh:
Yeah, I was selling popcorn right by there yesterday. I have to work every time there's a cast screening of the movie though. 
So, I had a dream last night and I thought I might share it with all of you...maybe help me to figure out what it means? I've never had a dream like that before and it's really bugging me right now. So here it goes.
The Dream!
Alright in this dream I am probably in my 30s, I'm walking in the park with my husband,...
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The Dream!
Alright in this dream I am probably in my 30s, I'm walking in the park with my husband,...
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r3x:
wtf. 
It's a good thing you remembered nearly every detail about it, but man oh man... I don't even know how to interpret this one! Your family (hubby/son/daughter) obviously represent the multiple aspects of yourself, but I can't tell you exactly what. Your extended family is most definitely representing the stress in the real world... I believe taking the baby from you is like taking a part of your life; they constantly ask more and more from you when all you want to do find your own niche and start living.
But what do I know???
btw, who was the husband?
It's a good thing you remembered nearly every detail about it, but man oh man... I don't even know how to interpret this one! Your family (hubby/son/daughter) obviously represent the multiple aspects of yourself, but I can't tell you exactly what. Your extended family is most definitely representing the stress in the real world... I believe taking the baby from you is like taking a part of your life; they constantly ask more and more from you when all you want to do find your own niche and start living.
But what do I know???
btw, who was the husband?
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paxton:
At least they took a good picture of you
nementh:
Do you work on Thursday? Me and some friends are going to the park. I was gonna look for you on my break today, but didn't feel like wandering around fantasy land during the parade.
Ugh I have that "what will you celebrate?" class today for work...
and a 2 hour book shift.
and for some reason the Scheduler who gave me that shift got mad at me because They wanted to put me at matterhorn and I was like, "but i don't know the matterhorn". I only know book, world, and classics....I mean I've been trying to get matter...
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and a 2 hour book shift.
and for some reason the Scheduler who gave me that shift got mad at me because They wanted to put me at matterhorn and I was like, "but i don't know the matterhorn". I only know book, world, and classics....I mean I've been trying to get matter...
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dpgc44:
Did you have a good time?
dpgc44:
Only women make me feel this way hun.. lol
Alright, Fine. You win.
After 2 and a half years, I'm finally giving in.
I thought I could get better by time but obviously that didn't work.
I've stopped drinking and smoking, that didn't help.
I've avoided all the things that could have possibly triggered my attacks...and all that happened was me losing some of the most important and loving friends I could ever have....
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After 2 and a half years, I'm finally giving in.
I thought I could get better by time but obviously that didn't work.
I've stopped drinking and smoking, that didn't help.
I've avoided all the things that could have possibly triggered my attacks...and all that happened was me losing some of the most important and loving friends I could ever have....
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paxton:
Yea, I suffered from panic attack too, I started taking Zolof and it has really helped me
paxton:
neither of my heads shrunk. I really feel much better. I have been on it for about 3 years now
I might go missing for a few days. Have some serious thinking to do.
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paxton:
good luck with what ever you need to do
dpgc44:
btw.. I thought I was the only one that said pfft..ohh and be safe with your wondering of mind stuff.. it hurts.
Dear Head,
Please stop confusing me. I don't think I am quite ready yet. You're making me act like a complete idiot and stop trying to convince about something that will never happen. Also, tell heart down there when you finally decide to stop playing games and realize the truth to just be strong and the pain will go away eventually...
love,
Lisa
Please stop confusing me. I don't think I am quite ready yet. You're making me act like a complete idiot and stop trying to convince about something that will never happen. Also, tell heart down there when you finally decide to stop playing games and realize the truth to just be strong and the pain will go away eventually...
love,
Lisa
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paxton:
Been there and done that
cocaine_blues:
Head and heart will never see eye to eye. It's a sad, unfortunate reality.
UPDATE:
Alright, I'm feeling somewhat better. After Thursday, I was finally done trying to be with him again. I was out with some friends and he texted me just asking how I was and I told him that I went to sephora to buy some makeup and he called me telling me that it only makes me look desperate to look good and that I...
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Alright, I'm feeling somewhat better. After Thursday, I was finally done trying to be with him again. I was out with some friends and he texted me just asking how I was and I told him that I went to sephora to buy some makeup and he called me telling me that it only makes me look desperate to look good and that I...
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Okay so everything is looking so much better today.
Since all of you know I was out of it....at work people could tell.
My manager pulled me aside and was like "I know you're not feeling so great, but if you want the trainer spot, you have to prove you want it. Please try harder. All your leads said yes to you getting the interview."...
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Since all of you know I was out of it....at work people could tell.
My manager pulled me aside and was like "I know you're not feeling so great, but if you want the trainer spot, you have to prove you want it. Please try harder. All your leads said yes to you getting the interview."...
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psylentmike:
Wish you luck with the promotion.
r3x:
That is slightly funny yet embarrassing. However, CAN one be embarrassed if there's no one around to know what happened? Of course, you admitted the whole scene to us here... so it's your fault in that regard. 
But I think your secret's still safe at work!
But I think your secret's still safe at work!