linzy

after only 3 hours of sleep due to working on a midterm project for class... i went to job #1 for five hours before going to day three of training today at my new job... and apparently my hair was noticed by the managers and owners of the resturant i am starting at. and today i got the ultimatum, that i needed to change my hair to something "normal" or find another job. as soon as i walked out i broke out in tears... but i have been waiting to start this job for 3 weeks, and am desperate for money right now. i know this job will give me the money i need to make it though grad school, but i feel like i am betraying myself to dye it "normal". i talked to my friends tonight (boys) and they are like 'its just hair'... but i feel so restricted in the ways i can express myself as it is, and my hair has been something that i can have fun with and show who i really am. so it may be lame that i feel so torn over normalizing my hair, but i just hate to conform for no good reason. plus! the majority of the complements that i have received about my hair have been from middle aged men and women, a bunch of random people, who all thought the look was very upscale and metropolitan. so for the bosses to think that it would somehow negatively affect their business is crazy!

im torn, it makes my heart hurt that people arent allowed to be who they are and express themselves in any way they want (especially if its not hurting anyone)!

i need some love... haha...