do you ever do stupid things like talk about girls you like or think are attractive with the one person you would give anything to be with, just so that they dont know that the ball is in their court?
last time i had that problem (not being able to talk to the object of your affection and desires directly about how you feel) i told a mutual friend of ours that i had a major crush on this guy, and then hoped that he'd take matters in hand and help me out. he did, and now su and i are getting married.
so, there you go.
and we need to plan something for saturday. the pride thing. let's go wave f(l)ags.
okay, Mistress Of The Cryptic, i've had just about enough of your journal entries. i lost my secret special decoder ring some time ago, and everything reads like haiku on drugs.
good drugs, though.
thanks for your #. the next 2 mondays are out for me...su and i are seeing the new batman flick this mon, and going to vnv nation next. but gay pride is next week, and i think we should get together and play in a giant field of pansies.
you know, we really need to make a plan. and stick to it. i'd love to see you again, and you're right. it's been WAY too long.
the definition of drama is that it's too much for one person to handle. most people don't realize that life is generally one big gay opera, with fancy costumes, an unwitting (and uninvited) audience, lots of screaming that passes as singing, and an occasional poisoning. i hope this particular scene of yours ends on a jubilant and happy note.
i have made so many attempts. i have tried. i really have. for the first time in a long time.
but have you done a thing? no. i am dead to you. and im sure you dont even care that you are the one who caused it. there is only so much i can put myself through. so im done.