So last night David confessed something that I've suspected for a very long time anyways,
"David why cant you love me?"
"Because Im afraid."
He's afraid I would hurt him, or abandon him... He's afraid of forever.
But he told me he was willing to try for me, I think he even had a tear in his eyes...
Anyways, The conversation we had made me so happy, the fact that he even admitted fear was a huge breakthrough. The fact that he even said anything at all was huge.
I love him, and I told him so. For the first time I actually said "I love you" out loud, and it felt so good.
Every night for a year now I laid next to him wishing I could turn over and wake him up to blurt it out...
I waited forever for this.
I think everything is going to work out.
"David why cant you love me?"
"Because Im afraid."
He's afraid I would hurt him, or abandon him... He's afraid of forever.
But he told me he was willing to try for me, I think he even had a tear in his eyes...
Anyways, The conversation we had made me so happy, the fact that he even admitted fear was a huge breakthrough. The fact that he even said anything at all was huge.
I love him, and I told him so. For the first time I actually said "I love you" out loud, and it felt so good.
Every night for a year now I laid next to him wishing I could turn over and wake him up to blurt it out...
I waited forever for this.
I think everything is going to work out.
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annasthesia:
Shut you mouth before you jinx me. You know what I meant lol
remod66:
I'm very happy for you and wish you the continued loving best!