Well this is my first blog so I guess I'll talk about the last 4 years of my life.
Well i joined the Army in late 2006 and thats where everything starts. I went to basic training in January of 07. I sent the first six months training and learning a job the Army really dosent use anymore. So about July of 07 they finaily sent to my first unit in the army which was the 101st out of Ft.Campbell, Ky. When i finaly got there they told me that I had 5 1/2 months to train for my first deployment to Afghanistain. Which was cool at first because I was train to be a gunner on a Helicopter. Now the fucked up part in that time frame was i meet someone who ended up making me want to kill her for the things she did to me but thats a story for a different day. Well 07 was comeing to an end it was getting around the time for me to deploy. I had to spend Christmas that year alone and only got a cold meal and two flat beers that tasted like shit. Then on 27 Dec. 07 i deployed and spent the next year in Afghanistain. Now 08 was preaty much interesting for me being in another country. The job i trained for was awesome and it had its up and down days. When I was over there I was almost killed more than I can count. The one event that I can remeber like yesterday was the day my Helicopter had to fly back to base do to machine issue's. We had went over this town and some guy had a RPG and fired it at us. I was luckey that day because he missed us by 20 meters but it did shack my bird when it air bursted. Like I said there where more day's almost like that but i really dont want to remember them, if anyone can understand me. So crazy shit like that went on for that hole year messing with my head. Then before i knew it it was time pack up and come home. I did have to sent another christmas and other hoilday away from home. I got home from that tour 28 Dec 08 at like midnight. Then it was time for the new year which was interesting. I sent new years with some friends that now I've had a falling out with.Well lets just say i scared them when people where shooting off fireworks. I had my first flash back from those and to is this day load noise's like that fuck me up. I had also developed the 1000 yard stare from that tour so you can see why i scared my now old friends. So I sent the first week home trying to get back into things because everything had changed and the was so many new things like music i missed and other misc stuff. About the second or third week of 09 I got into a relationship with my now wife thanks to her ex husband who is a complete tool bag. I was only with here 3 months when I figured out that she the one I was looking for. Now the only bad the was i was about to move to a new unit and state. Now its March of 09 Im to married to women I've always been looking for. I made it to Colorado with her and got put into 4th Infantry Division. Now get to these guys and get put in the current my current unit which ai really dont like. They where just coming back from Iraq that month. It took about two months after I got there they had put out that March of 2010 we were going to Iraq. They had also started fucking with me and still are. Now I'm sure if they are seeing how far they can push me before crack but its not working that well for them. So for all of 09 and earily 2010 i sent dam near min. of my time training to come to Iraq and fight for my life again. I dont really remeber a hole lot of 09 because of the training i had to do. Then again a year came to be for me by this time i hit my 3 year mark in the military and i know it seems like those years just flashed by me and they did just like this past 12 months. By March 2010 which is also me and my wifes anniversary it was time to deploy again and no i wasnt home for are anniversary thanks to these dicks. Now I bring anyone whos reading to 2010 and 2011. The last 12 months has been a little ruff. This time I'm in Iraq. It hasnt been to bad here other than somethings. The working 48 plus hours has been the hardest thing here and its like havent sleep most of the year and the days have some how all become one blurry memory for me. Now the most fucked up thing I have had see out was one of my bro's in another unit die. He died 22 August 2010 during a attack to the base I'm on out here. He was just a young kid and he was 24 years old. And some how I blame myself some for him not being alive. I talked to the Doctors and they keep telling me there was nothing else i could do that morning to help. I'm telling this because im tired of talking to doctors about it because they want to relive that day everytime i talk to them. Now its 2011 and im at the end of my tour here in Iraq and i cant wait to get home and try forget i was ever here.
Now anyone that reads this i sorry if sounds like im stupid but its my story and i just want to tell it and hope I can one day make since of it. I also just so dam tired of seeing doctors and being put on anti depressants. I dont want any to feel sorry for me either this is just a new way for me to vent my life. This is also not the onl blog ill put here there will be more and not as bad as this. So there ive said what i wanted to say tell me what you think.
Well i joined the Army in late 2006 and thats where everything starts. I went to basic training in January of 07. I sent the first six months training and learning a job the Army really dosent use anymore. So about July of 07 they finaily sent to my first unit in the army which was the 101st out of Ft.Campbell, Ky. When i finaly got there they told me that I had 5 1/2 months to train for my first deployment to Afghanistain. Which was cool at first because I was train to be a gunner on a Helicopter. Now the fucked up part in that time frame was i meet someone who ended up making me want to kill her for the things she did to me but thats a story for a different day. Well 07 was comeing to an end it was getting around the time for me to deploy. I had to spend Christmas that year alone and only got a cold meal and two flat beers that tasted like shit. Then on 27 Dec. 07 i deployed and spent the next year in Afghanistain. Now 08 was preaty much interesting for me being in another country. The job i trained for was awesome and it had its up and down days. When I was over there I was almost killed more than I can count. The one event that I can remeber like yesterday was the day my Helicopter had to fly back to base do to machine issue's. We had went over this town and some guy had a RPG and fired it at us. I was luckey that day because he missed us by 20 meters but it did shack my bird when it air bursted. Like I said there where more day's almost like that but i really dont want to remember them, if anyone can understand me. So crazy shit like that went on for that hole year messing with my head. Then before i knew it it was time pack up and come home. I did have to sent another christmas and other hoilday away from home. I got home from that tour 28 Dec 08 at like midnight. Then it was time for the new year which was interesting. I sent new years with some friends that now I've had a falling out with.Well lets just say i scared them when people where shooting off fireworks. I had my first flash back from those and to is this day load noise's like that fuck me up. I had also developed the 1000 yard stare from that tour so you can see why i scared my now old friends. So I sent the first week home trying to get back into things because everything had changed and the was so many new things like music i missed and other misc stuff. About the second or third week of 09 I got into a relationship with my now wife thanks to her ex husband who is a complete tool bag. I was only with here 3 months when I figured out that she the one I was looking for. Now the only bad the was i was about to move to a new unit and state. Now its March of 09 Im to married to women I've always been looking for. I made it to Colorado with her and got put into 4th Infantry Division. Now get to these guys and get put in the current my current unit which ai really dont like. They where just coming back from Iraq that month. It took about two months after I got there they had put out that March of 2010 we were going to Iraq. They had also started fucking with me and still are. Now I'm sure if they are seeing how far they can push me before crack but its not working that well for them. So for all of 09 and earily 2010 i sent dam near min. of my time training to come to Iraq and fight for my life again. I dont really remeber a hole lot of 09 because of the training i had to do. Then again a year came to be for me by this time i hit my 3 year mark in the military and i know it seems like those years just flashed by me and they did just like this past 12 months. By March 2010 which is also me and my wifes anniversary it was time to deploy again and no i wasnt home for are anniversary thanks to these dicks. Now I bring anyone whos reading to 2010 and 2011. The last 12 months has been a little ruff. This time I'm in Iraq. It hasnt been to bad here other than somethings. The working 48 plus hours has been the hardest thing here and its like havent sleep most of the year and the days have some how all become one blurry memory for me. Now the most fucked up thing I have had see out was one of my bro's in another unit die. He died 22 August 2010 during a attack to the base I'm on out here. He was just a young kid and he was 24 years old. And some how I blame myself some for him not being alive. I talked to the Doctors and they keep telling me there was nothing else i could do that morning to help. I'm telling this because im tired of talking to doctors about it because they want to relive that day everytime i talk to them. Now its 2011 and im at the end of my tour here in Iraq and i cant wait to get home and try forget i was ever here.
Now anyone that reads this i sorry if sounds like im stupid but its my story and i just want to tell it and hope I can one day make since of it. I also just so dam tired of seeing doctors and being put on anti depressants. I dont want any to feel sorry for me either this is just a new way for me to vent my life. This is also not the onl blog ill put here there will be more and not as bad as this. So there ive said what i wanted to say tell me what you think.
Congrats on your first ever blog baby! Can't wait until you're back home with me!