leanna

So, I'm done with all this drama. It seems to be squared away, I made my apologies for misunderstandings and clarifications where needed, I was polite, I took the blame, I talked directly to the source and sincerely apologised. If it's not fine from here on out, it's got nothing to do with me.

I did, however, overreact about something stupid and had some excessively angry words for someone else, but they had been waiting to jump out for months, and sure, it may have been misplaced anger, but, it got out, and I don't regret it, and it wasn't a mistake. Sometimes you've got to throw out an overly harsh "fuck you" to be understood. I am finally at peace with him and everything he did to me, and the bad decisions I made regarding him, even if that means there is no future for friendship. I don't need it, nor do I want it, but who knows? I simply do not care, any longer.

I talk so much because I haven't a clue what to say, but everything that comes out of my mouth is still all wrong.


" Nothings wrong, Im just fine
Ive realized I just dont like jokes
Im thinking of moving, I cant call anyone back
You can tell every time they lean away
When you just want to talk
You couldnt buy their interest now "

I guess I've got the jitters.

PS - today is my brother's 21st birthday. Lucky. I will be 19 in exactly one month.