Ok journal's are for Bitching. If you don't want to here it, then don't read.
Ok. First and foremost, some of what I remember from my other journal. Justen. (My baby's dad for those of you who don't know) Has only given me $40 since I've known him, and been pregnant. He doesn't want me to take child support, so he can get ahead, so I'm agreeing. But he still needs to help me out. He says he will, but hasn't yet. So I don't know. I tried to explain it to him like this. I think we should ultimately pay for 50% of the baby ourselves. Jordan spends more than 75% of his time with me. And less than 25% of his time with his dad. So why can't he help me out with the other 25%?
My mom is asking me if I'm gonna take back support from him. And then gets mad when I tell her I'm not gonna take any from him at all if I can help it. If I took Child Support and Back Support he would never have any money, and would never get out of the hole. The whole fucking situation sucks.
And then I get bitched at by people because I won't hang out with them??? Do they not realize that I don't have any free time? I have a three month old child? It takes money, and a babysitter I trust for me to go out. Which doesn't happen very often. And oh, did I mention reliable babysitter? Sorry. I am broke as fuck. I literally have two dollars to my name.
Then... I am sexually frustrated. I don't know if it's because I just had a baby and my hormones are going crazy... but the last few days I have been on edge... I feel like I am releasing three thousand eggs at once. Screaming to be fertilized. They say it is very easy to get pregnant right after you've had a baby. I guess so. I can't remember the last time I was this horny
And I really need to find me a beautiful girl to sleep with. But I am extremely picky, so I doubt that will happen anytime soon.
Ok. First and foremost, some of what I remember from my other journal. Justen. (My baby's dad for those of you who don't know) Has only given me $40 since I've known him, and been pregnant. He doesn't want me to take child support, so he can get ahead, so I'm agreeing. But he still needs to help me out. He says he will, but hasn't yet. So I don't know. I tried to explain it to him like this. I think we should ultimately pay for 50% of the baby ourselves. Jordan spends more than 75% of his time with me. And less than 25% of his time with his dad. So why can't he help me out with the other 25%?
My mom is asking me if I'm gonna take back support from him. And then gets mad when I tell her I'm not gonna take any from him at all if I can help it. If I took Child Support and Back Support he would never have any money, and would never get out of the hole. The whole fucking situation sucks.
And then I get bitched at by people because I won't hang out with them??? Do they not realize that I don't have any free time? I have a three month old child? It takes money, and a babysitter I trust for me to go out. Which doesn't happen very often. And oh, did I mention reliable babysitter? Sorry. I am broke as fuck. I literally have two dollars to my name.
Then... I am sexually frustrated. I don't know if it's because I just had a baby and my hormones are going crazy... but the last few days I have been on edge... I feel like I am releasing three thousand eggs at once. Screaming to be fertilized. They say it is very easy to get pregnant right after you've had a baby. I guess so. I can't remember the last time I was this horny
And I really need to find me a beautiful girl to sleep with. But I am extremely picky, so I doubt that will happen anytime soon.
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-Amen sir.-
I know it's tough being a responsible momma but you're doing a good job!! It just makes it even better when you do make it to see everybody!!
ps. love the new proflie pic! cept for that dork you let in the picture with you
[Edited on Feb 13, 2006 6:50AM]