Life is shit... that's a direct quote from the Dead Milkmen.... I feel like that today.... my studio is going to shit.... damned landlords not returning my calls or getting anything done up there, still no windows, running water, fire escape.... nothing... oh and now there is something dead and rotting in the third floor, not my area, but I'm sure by the end of the week it will smell the entire place up. *sigh* I feel like it's all my fault somehow, that I fucked it all up.... I know that's not the case, unless I get off my ass, stop making excuses (thank you Micky for drilling that in my head) and call a lawyer and do something. I'm scared, I'll admit that right out.... I hate making waves, as it were, but I need to be a bitch to these guys like I would be to anyone else that fucked me over and ruined my plans. *sigh* It's just so damned depressing.... but I'm trying to remain positive.... perhaps this place was just a stepping stone for me to get a real place for my studio, just to get my ass in gear and get excited about doing art again.... I did realise that, it's not about making money for me, although it would be nice to have some to pay the bills.... I want to create art for people to look at and enjoy.... I want people to look at the pics I do of them and be happy and realise their own true beauty.... that is true success for me, for people to love the work I do for them and have others tell them how beautiful it is as well.
Lets see, what else.... oh, hubby did ot last week, worked 10 days straight, got a nice paycheck, then the brakes went on the car yesterday.... I had plans but they were thwarted.... it sucks having one car. Now the money we had in reserve ( trying soooo hard to have a cushion for emergencies) is going to be depleted again. One the happier side tho, I paid all our bills for this month and part of next month already.... so I guess not all is lost. This weekend we are towing the 65 hearse to Sarah's... I'm hoping that once it is out there, it will sell. She lives in a good area where it will be easily seen. It'll cost me around $100 to flatbed it, but oh well, it will be worth it, especially when it sells. Then I can get my nre digital camera, finally, and hopefully another car. I HATE being stuck at home all the damned time while he is working. I bought a bicycle, going to start riding that to the park and around town this week I think.... so much to do this week. Call lawyer, call for a tow, clean out garage to get ready for a yard sale, get brakes fixed on the car, start getting the 62 hearse fixed.... UGH!
On a somewhat brighter note, even though the scale is not moving, I have to be losing still, I added more jeans to the "too big pile" right from the "too small pile".... my gut isn't going down as fast as I would like it to, but my ass and legs must be because that is where most of the jeans are all baggy.... can't wear flares with baggy thighs and ass, it just makes me look fatter. I now have 4 pair of jeans I can wear, that's up from 2.... I've added about 10 pair to the "too big pile".... kinda makes me feel good. I'll sell em all at the yard sale and make money to buy more smaller jeans.
Oh well.... time to go workout....
Lets see, what else.... oh, hubby did ot last week, worked 10 days straight, got a nice paycheck, then the brakes went on the car yesterday.... I had plans but they were thwarted.... it sucks having one car. Now the money we had in reserve ( trying soooo hard to have a cushion for emergencies) is going to be depleted again. One the happier side tho, I paid all our bills for this month and part of next month already.... so I guess not all is lost. This weekend we are towing the 65 hearse to Sarah's... I'm hoping that once it is out there, it will sell. She lives in a good area where it will be easily seen. It'll cost me around $100 to flatbed it, but oh well, it will be worth it, especially when it sells. Then I can get my nre digital camera, finally, and hopefully another car. I HATE being stuck at home all the damned time while he is working. I bought a bicycle, going to start riding that to the park and around town this week I think.... so much to do this week. Call lawyer, call for a tow, clean out garage to get ready for a yard sale, get brakes fixed on the car, start getting the 62 hearse fixed.... UGH!
On a somewhat brighter note, even though the scale is not moving, I have to be losing still, I added more jeans to the "too big pile" right from the "too small pile".... my gut isn't going down as fast as I would like it to, but my ass and legs must be because that is where most of the jeans are all baggy.... can't wear flares with baggy thighs and ass, it just makes me look fatter. I now have 4 pair of jeans I can wear, that's up from 2.... I've added about 10 pair to the "too big pile".... kinda makes me feel good. I'll sell em all at the yard sale and make money to buy more smaller jeans.
Oh well.... time to go workout....