laceyk

I'm sabatoging myself and I can't stop.
I don't know what to do.

I am too scared. I think I know what's right but can't tell if i am just being stubborn.

I can myself doing it.
I try to fight it, but I am addicted to ruining my life.
I can't stop myself no matter how I try.

I can't let it be good. Good is boring?
I don't know.

I am scared. I think I am trying to guard myself from pain and heartache.
I feel like I am stuc, can't move forward or back.
I refuse to deal with it, from fear of making the wrong choice.