God damn it. I'm tired of feeling this way. I don't want to meet anyone else who makes me hope for a future I can't have, no matter how much I want it. I'm tired of it. I can live with being alone. I can deal with alone. I can't deal with the torturous procession of hope. They're just far enough apart that I've 'given up' but that I'm not beyond being having hope revitalized.
It's enough to almost make you believe in God. And also to believe that he is a vindictive bastard.
Maybe I'm just fucked in the head. Maybe I've just latched onto an idea of the way things have to be, and I can't let it go so that I can accept the way things really are.
I don't believe that's right though, I know how it should be. And I have to trust that. If I can't trust my own judgment, then I've really lost my mind an it doesn't matter anyway.
It's enough to almost make you believe in God. And also to believe that he is a vindictive bastard.
Maybe I'm just fucked in the head. Maybe I've just latched onto an idea of the way things have to be, and I can't let it go so that I can accept the way things really are.
I don't believe that's right though, I know how it should be. And I have to trust that. If I can't trust my own judgment, then I've really lost my mind an it doesn't matter anyway.
adrastea:
I seriously just laughed for like..3 minutes after reading that joke...after it took me a few seconds to figure it out. (I'm kind of slowwwww after a long day. haha) Definitely a good one.