killakourt

Ohhh how I wish the chaos would calm down in my life. It's like one thing after the fucking other. I wouldn't wish this feeling on my worst enemy. I hate to always sound so melodramatic and emo, but fuckk me, life is really kicking my ass. Something evil has me by the fucking spinal cord and is anchoring me down to wallow in my own pity. I feel almost completely pathetic, I don't recall a time in my life that was ever worse than it is now. I need something new, something beautiful. I need some motivation, i feel like i'm stuck in my bed when I wake up in the morning. My anxiety is literally controlling my life. I'm still not coping or dealing with the Cody thing at all, I just cry constantly, and wait around on his messages, I pretty much beg him to be with me. I feel so fucking low.
ANYWAY. fuckkk.
Someone come kidnap me, I need to get the fuck out of here. I just need a break from life.
I'm shooting with MetroGlamour next month, yay!! going up north for a few days.
ANNDDD please do not forget This Still Needs Your LOVEEEE!

ENJOYYYYY<3
I went through and picked out some things to better express my feelings.


i love making gifs<3 they are my FAV=]

Lay my head, under the water
Lay my head, under the sea
Excuse me sir, am I your daughter?
Won't you take me back, take me back and see?
There's not a time, for being younger
And all my friends, are enemies
And if I cried unto my mother
No she wasn't there, she wasn't there for me
Don't let the water drag you down
Don't let the water drag you down
Broken lines, across my mirror
Show my face, all red and bruised
And though I screamed and I screamed, well, no one came running
No I wasn't saved, I wasn't safe from you
Lay my head, under the water
Aloud I pray, for calmer seas
And when I wake from this dream, with chains all around me
No, I've never been, I've never been free

I love that fucking band...wow. AND Taylor Mormsen is a fucking goddess<3<3








You guys seriously keep me going, I don't know where I would be without you all.
Thank you so much for your continued support, and just your love<3
You guys mean the world to me
Love Killa<33