@bloghomework
This is blog homework that i am specifically writing, it is not solely directed at one individual but at a fair few i have wronged and offended including the owner of the website, members of staff & SG's members of SGUK & the site.
I have tried to apologise before but i admit after reading through my words it probably, most definitely was not good enough.
People make mistakes, i think my problem is that after meeting so many new people i just got overwhelmed and i let the alcohol get the worst of me. Unfortunately i have to admit that at several points in the night i acted a total fool, a complete an utter idiot and i have been regretting even going to the event because of my behaviour ever since. I feel horrid about it as it has given entirely the wrong impression of me to everyone on here.
I am not a crazy mess all of the time and that isn't me, i have never been good at first impressions, all my friends have said in the past it took afew times meeting me before they understood me and my sense of humour the things i say and the fact everything i say usually needs 'reading between the lines.'
I apologise for being too drunk, being loud, offensive and obnoxious. I apologise for causing a scene after the show and causing drama & ruining the night for so many girls and people who had paid to see the show.
I can admit and take responsibility for my actions, i was wrong and i am very sorry.
I loved everyone i met and i should not have allowed myself to get into that state, I can only hope this will begin to mend fences so to speak, i love this website i do not wish to leave. I will work my ass off and give my heart and soul to the site and hoping in return eventually perhaps i will get acceptance, not just to SG but just feeling like i am part of it all.
I know what i did wrong and i know that the behaviour i portrayed that night was entirely unacceptable by any standards.
I love all of you, everyone i met who spoke about me afterwards i can understand the need for the conversation & i can understand your opinions and thoughts on me. I can only hope time will heal this for us all as i truly thought you were all such amazing people and we got off entirely on the wrong feet.
I am so sorry everyone. I truly am.
So much love.
#sguk #apology #honesty #love #suicidegirls #sghopeful
