so I got a new job, 40 hours a week. Things with the fiance are fucked up, we fight constantly now. I feel like I am losing my mind, my life is spiraling downward. I feel like no one can stop it and when I crash I will crash hard. I have been so depressed lately and I have no idea why. I can not wait until I move into my appartment and get away from everything up here. between my mother, my father and my brother I can not take this shit anymore, and my father does not even live with us. I dunno what to do, I just wanna curl up and die somewhere. I dunno and i highly doubt anyone reads these. 