I'm not really feeling myself today?? And I have no clue why? I don't understand? Maybe it's the weather..but it's NEVER affected me before. So that's why I'm wondering that.. maybe it's from all the past events that's happen, things I don't understand, relationships I don't understand, people I don't understand.. knowing it's getting near the Holiday season and Jessie is over in Iraq.. and isn't going to be here.. maybe I'm loney, and feel forgotten, misjudged, not given a chance, knowing that I have so much to offer, and no one seems to care. Feeling that I take on the feelings of everyone else.. all their hurts, troubles, worries..and I hate that.. I don't want that.. I NEVER asked for it! I have so much to be thankful for.. I mean I know the greatest little man alive and get to enjoy his smile and big bright eyes everyday, I have a loving, caring, really disfunctional family that I love with all my heart, I have the best friends EVER.. I'm in good health (kinda), there is so much good I can look and see, and yet for some strange reason I dont' feel like me! I hate this.. cause I'm not suppose to be sad, and feel down.. I'm suppose to be happy, and cheerful, and full of kind words and love..but today.. isn't the day for that! I know that not everyone is happy everyday, but god I hate feeling this way! I just want to cry.. to sit down.. and just cry my heart out! It's like I have this dark cloud over my head..and it won't go away. This is sooo NOT me! I hate it. I want the old Katie back.. the happy, laughing, joyful, thankful one. The one I'm use to!
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modvayne:
We all have our down days, but Punk Nite is coming up on Saturday. That gives us all something to look forward to.
trickynicki:
Best of luck, I hope you feel better