juxtapose

hi.

My last journal sucked. I was so nervous about the whole thing. I was in ahurry to get there. I DID NOT WANT TO GO. I have not been DIAGNOSED as some of you misunderstood. The biopsy was specifically for that, and I fukin blew it. I was procrastinating so much that morning, I should have asked someone to go with me cuz then my failure would have probably been an accomplishment. Then again, I belivev things happen for a reason.
I got lost that moring trying to get there. Not really lost but took a longer way there. It just happened, it was strange. I called them and told them I was running late cuz the stupid girls in the office don't know the difference from east to west north and south. I don't understand how grown people still can't get a sense for Direction..ahh nevermind that.
They were aware of my situation.
It seemed everything known to man was slowing me down that day from lights to accidents.
I got there late...frustrated , worried and naseated.
Only for the fukin ignorant cholita receptionists with no fukin sense of direction to tell me
"Your too late, they can't see you, you'll have to reschedule."
Ohh great.... I have already been waiting since St. Patricks day for this. So now I supposed I'll have to wait another month or so for another appointment right.
Yup. June 17th......
Will a growing illness be so patient? Perhaps it will slow down eating inside me. Perhaps it feels bad that it's inside my body, maybe killing me, and I can't even get a biopsy to have it diagnosed.
On top of that I order local ins. company to send me an enrollment kit WEEKS AGO.
DO you think that came yet?
I don't even have time to worry about this crap...
I'm still over here with my own business struggling for clients.
I've got promo's, marketing and networking coming out of my ears.

:collapses:

but........
On a good note. My journey to vegetarianism has gotten much closer and I feel much better.
That has to mean something...


Thanks for being here..