jupitersunrise

i did it! i'm fucking done. the semester is over. i am alive. i am ok.

i have been so friggin' down the past few weeks and i might contribute those emotions to school screwing me all up. it made me entirely too unhappy for my own liking. i wish i could just not go anymore. i wish this were the end of the line for me, but alas i am just beyond halfway.

been really emotional lately. i broke down on joe the other day. i called my sister last night and was crying before she even answered the phone. i went for a walk last night to clear my head and get ideas for revising a story that was due today, and i cried. if you only understood that i don't cry over stupid shit like this. or at least... when i do cry, there's a solid reason for me to cry. i simply do not have one lately, but alas i cry anyway.

if you notice, i don't write much when i'm down. hence the short journal entries as of late. but today is different, today a weight has been lifted.

thank
fucking
hell