jumping_spider

Do you realize that this reality is the one we have made for ourselves. . .not everyone else. My reality is different then yours. . .and you can not begin to even scratch my surface without knowing me, wishing to know of me. . .with a firm heart and a thirst for truth. We are all islands onto ourselves. . .nations of one. . .so...
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I feel like shit.

Today I kicked my friends asses at hunter HALO.
6-1. I used a sniper rifle for most of my "kills". When X-box live comes out I will go online. . .and kill more in the imaginery reality of video games. . .does this make me a possible threat? Everyone thinks of killing people at some point in their lives. . .most of us do not...
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Today I was pissed off. . .and yet what does it profit a man? Or a woman? I felt just how alone we all are. . .seperated forever by the vast distance of thought and expression. Eating bread and cheese here at my computer. . .My cat is happy to see me, and a wall has gone up some were in my universe.

I am nothing like you think I am.
I am evil like the Satan in your Bible.
I am good like the seraphim and terrible like. . .
Dread Cthulu who waits dreaming beneath the
waves.
Are you a judge or are you a prisoner?
Can you understand the appeal of the gun.
The vision the distance the resistance of the trigger
The breath held...
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If on the morrow you forget me I will understand.
And when you see me again, if you ask me who I am and from whence I came I will be content.
For the minds of such as you, the years by your reckoning pass slowely and with pause.
But I am eternal and so I will never forget you.
For I will always be...
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I can feel her anger and I will not ask why.
I can feel the tension and I can see the wall
Like a sheer void of arrogant certainty. . .
As if it is all so simple and true. . .
What is depends on who and were and never
what. . .
Against the world and within the sharpest mind.
The trap of...
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Is their a surgeon in the house.
Too cut this out, remove this cancer. . .
Burn a hole through my heart.
Is their a priest willing to exorcise my spirit..
Destroy my soul.
So I may live without this pain,
Become so much like them.
Lose this weak assed view of love.
Forget the bonds of friendship and civility.
Become a predator among men....
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I am not your slave.
I am not your lover.
I am not your cause.
I am not your reason.
I am not your mother.
You are not my father.
I am not your child.
I am nothing too you
that I was not first too myself.
I am in no way your charge.
And I do not need you.
Your cock or your open...
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