juju33

I am so fucking happy. There is not one thing in my life I would change. OK, that's not true, I wish Amadio would get a fucking job because his wife is gonna go postal on his ass if he doesn't.

Watched my wife be a bottom last night and am having day after freak outs. Not sure where to put it. I don't think I can watch her play anymore. I think I will leave the topping to her new lover. She is so happy though. It's fun to watch her experience all of this for the first time. She spent a good part of the morning looking for a word for how she feels. She never found one. I never can either.

I have become lovers with a friend and find myself suddenly unerved around him. I actually find myself unerved all the time. Being insainly happy really fucks with your mind. For five months my wife has said "go ahead and fall in love" Somewhere in the wee hours of monday morning I finally just let go. And it feels great, and scary, and warm, and potentially dangerous, and I feel alive. I've never believed it was ok to feel, so I never let myself feel so good. Not really sure what to do with this. I will get back to you on it