juju33

My work here is done.

I am in love and loved by two very wonderful people. I have friends, and family that support me. Work is great. Life is good and all is well with the world. I'm just too busy for suicide girls.

You will all be missed and I will stop in occasionally just to check up on you luvs.

La la la...
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Someone explain to me why I can spend the afternoon in the arms of someone who totally adores me, who shows me all the time how much he adores me and I spend the whole time wishing my friend with the perpetually broken dialing finger would just pick up the phone. Why is this true, and when am I going to just get over it...
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I am starting to worry that I am having a manic break. Despite several things that were making me happy going very very wrong, I am still, so fucking happy.

I've started expressing my own needs, and realized that friendships where none of your needs getting met are not friendships at all, they are a desperate desire for validation based on someone elses dependency on...
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Dearest Sweet Baboo,
I have loved spending time with you in this pumpkin patch. The Great Pumpkin isn't coming though, so I am leaving before I miss out on all the tricks and treats.
Yours Always,
Sally

To Love Without Holding

Learning to love differently is hard.
Love with hands wide open, love
with the door banging on their hinges,
the cupboard unlocked, the wind
roaring and whimpering in the rooms
rustling the sheets and snapping the blinds
in an open palm.

It hurts to love wide open
stretching the muscles that feel
as if they are made of wet plaster,
then...
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Erased because you should never write a journal entry after staying up all night fighting with a lover.

Chop wood, carry water.

I spent the afternoon sanding canes for Amadio. It was the coolest thing. You take these raw, jagged sticks with the texture of bark and then sand then untill they are as smooth as latex. And the experience itself, of just sitting and doing something that required no brain input was wonderful, total sensory.

As a social worker, I don't get...
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When I was a teenager I hung around with the punk rock comic book geeks. The boys and the Dykes all loved the X-men and the Avengers, the Justice League and things like that. I used to wear my hair like storm and dress in like a super hero, stocking and tight shirts, short mini's and boots. As I was discovering sexuality, comics were a...
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It's illegal to be this happy. I am sure of it.
My wife, is blissful. She has the most wonderful girlfriend who tops her, sexually and in play and is attentive and wonderful in every way. She is back together with an ex-girl, who she loved dearly and hurt very bad when she went away. And her wife is crazy, mad happy and in love...
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I'm going to Philly in May, and up to New York to see my god daughter. I am so fucking excited. I'm hoping to take a friend, but either way I know DPT and Cyd will take good care of me.

In related news, I decided I should see how flexable I can become in two months

Today my ex-boyfriend, and current best freind said...
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I just "came out" to my kids about being poly. As I already knew, the older one already had the 411, younger one was a little harder, but it was ok. We had a prilimanary talk a few years ago, but this is the first time we just flat out said it.
So, now sleep overs and shit won't be such a pain in the...
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MMMM, I have that yummy morning after glow going on. My wife and I had a great dinner at this very cool resteraunt that my baboo recomended, shared a bottle of wine and skipped the show so we could go home and make love.

Now I am on my way to breakfast with friends, lunch with a lover, and then to watch the "L-Word" with...
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