judyisapunk

I feel a strong sense that things are going to start falling down around me. Poeple are going to start betraying. Some will turn one eighties on plans we've made and I'm going to be on my own. I don't know where it's coming from, nothing has happened yet. it's just a nagging clawing feeling in my gut. I'm on edge and the edge is thin. Scarey. Maybe it's simply the anticipation of the coming year when my life will change drastically. we'll see.
I'm thinking about donig another set soon. This will probably be the last attempt I make as an Sg hopeful for a number of reasons. One being I just don't think I'm what they're really looking for ( and that's fine) and another being my professional plans. Either way who wants to be my photog? the position is curently up for grabs. and this fact makes me miss Gina emmensly.
I'm also feeling sadly nestalgic fr college. I'm still in school, but I'm not packing up and going away in a couple of weeks and that is very sad. I need to get that part of my life together.
I'm ready to move though. I really do feel like there isn't much left here for me. This town is dead, and it's trying to kill me and make me part of it. when it feels that way it's time to get out.
there was a chill in the air this morning. first time in a long time and Now I know summer is ending. Season shifts are always hard to take. Robert Frost wrote a lot about this emotional and natural unsteadyness. MAybe I should get to reading him again.
oh and with the urging of many of my peers, I'm going to be building a myspace accoount. In the event that I stop using SG, you will soon be able to find me at myspace.
oh and Iggy, call me. I was trying to get you, but you're phone hates me.