I am still bored and in need of distraction. All my usual distractions aren't working lately. Sigh. 
I can't seem to get anything done - at work or at home. I call days like that "Mo-lassesss Days", with the stress on the "Mo". Grrr. There's a ton to do at work, but alas no, I cannot seem to get it together. It makes me feel...
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I can't seem to get anything done - at work or at home. I call days like that "Mo-lassesss Days", with the stress on the "Mo". Grrr. There's a ton to do at work, but alas no, I cannot seem to get it together. It makes me feel... Read More
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I am just so tired today. I took my mom's cat to the vet for a follow up and she's (the cat) is doing a lot better. then my mom gets a bright idea to do dinner so we can bond or something, which turned into her being dramatic and crying about wanting to kill herself, as per usual. Then she wants to shop at...
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schleprock:
Greg Kihn was the second concert I ever went too. He performed at the local fair with Sparks.
Glad to hear that your Mom's cat is doing better.
Glad to hear that your Mom's cat is doing better.
Not much to say today. I'm going to sleep now, after I feed my hungry complaining cats. I feel a little better today, but I think that is only due to the distraction of work.
I feel like I want to do some writing (poetry and such), but cannot focus on that. Oh well. Maybe I'll get out of this rut soon. I sure hope...
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I feel like I want to do some writing (poetry and such), but cannot focus on that. Oh well. Maybe I'll get out of this rut soon. I sure hope...
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hotbox:
you sound kinda down. i hope today is better 
silencenoir:
I hope you feel better soon girl
How many cats do you have?
I have 3 wonderful *brats* myself. Gotta love them furry lil things.
(purrrrrr)
How many cats do you have?
I have 3 wonderful *brats* myself. Gotta love them furry lil things.
(purrrrrr)
So, haven't had much to say lately. Work has been very busy and sucks big time. I swear, it kills my brain cells one by one.
New tat is healing. I think it'll be ready for some pics soon. I'll post them after I take some. Tat is driving me nuts. It's in the itchy stage now, no matter how much damn lotion I use....
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New tat is healing. I think it'll be ready for some pics soon. I'll post them after I take some. Tat is driving me nuts. It's in the itchy stage now, no matter how much damn lotion I use....
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silencenoir:
Glad you feel the same about James Marsters. Isn't he just awesome? Did you hear him behind the scenes of the show? he isn't british but still sounds hella good. They said, it's definitive that he's going to be in Angel. yay!! I can't wait.... and yes he should have his OWN show... he would carry it off.
Talk later, hope you cheer up a lil bit and have a good week
Talk later, hope you cheer up a lil bit and have a good week
schleprock:
Feeling down is okay it's just the unending wanting to end your life downess that is bad. It sounds like they are working just fine though.
I have noticed that all the anti-depressants have been time stealers to some extent. Except maybe Prozac but all I could do then was work on two somputers and guzzle coke to keep the buzziness down. Housemates found it bizare that I could drink a 2 liter bottle at 8pm and be asleep by 9pm.,
Diaz has never done a lot for me. I think the only thing she has going for her is her smile. And no sense of shame.
later
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9::11pm It got you to laugh. Sounds like pick up line to me.
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I have noticed that all the anti-depressants have been time stealers to some extent. Except maybe Prozac but all I could do then was work on two somputers and guzzle coke to keep the buzziness down. Housemates found it bizare that I could drink a 2 liter bottle at 8pm and be asleep by 9pm.,
Diaz has never done a lot for me. I think the only thing she has going for her is her smile. And no sense of shame.
later
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9::11pm It got you to laugh. Sounds like pick up line to me.
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As I posted in my 6/20 journal, I got the tattoo. Woo hoo and ouch! It's beautiful and I will post a pic of it when it's a bit more healed.
It's been a whirlwind of the last 4 days. What a bizarre vacation I've had. I cannot believe I have to go back to work tomorrow. There is so much to do, that I'm...
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It's been a whirlwind of the last 4 days. What a bizarre vacation I've had. I cannot believe I have to go back to work tomorrow. There is so much to do, that I'm...
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schleprock:
Hope your Mom's cat comes through everything okay.
I reallt didn't want to come into work either. I had just managed to get wound down from the week and was ready to do some chores around the house. Guess that is what my time after work this week will be for.
Can't wait to see that tat.
Rodney
I reallt didn't want to come into work either. I had just managed to get wound down from the week and was ready to do some chores around the house. Guess that is what my time after work this week will be for.
Can't wait to see that tat.
Rodney
hotbox:
I got a new tattoo this weekend too! And I also have a
"soul killing office job." I can empathize with your contempt for it too my dear.
"soul killing office job." I can empathize with your contempt for it too my dear.
Had another productive day today. Got my hair cut, bought a new nose stud and made an appt. to get a tatttoo tomorrow. It was a make-over day! I've been wanting to get a new tat for a long while now, so I'm really excited. I'll have to post a pic of it after it heals.
Now if I can just get my big fat...
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juliana:
... so.
Finally someone who is in SJ and is willing to admit it as their location. I admire that; I couldn't bring myself to do it, for some reason.
Where did you make the appt? And what are you getting?
Finally someone who is in SJ and is willing to admit it as their location. I admire that; I couldn't bring myself to do it, for some reason.
Where did you make the appt? And what are you getting?
jora:
Got the tattoo. It's beautiful. I walked in there Friday and one of the artists (Julio at Marks of Art) designed it for me on the spot in about 10 min. I made the appt. and went back Sat. and had it done. It's been a long time since I've had one done... OUCH! But after the first 10 min. or so, I went into the "Tattoo Zone" where the pain isn't really pain, you know? It hurts more today, but it seems to be healing nicely. I sooooo already want to go back and get more. They are so addicting. Oh, and the design... it's more Tribal, but Julio added some shades of blue within the design. It was a cover-up too. I had some cheesey thing on my wrist that I got when I turned 18 and I've hated it for years. Now my wrist is very spiffy!
I'll take a pic when it doesn't look so scabby and post it here.
jora33
I'll take a pic when it doesn't look so scabby and post it here.
jora33
Today was weird. I felt weird, but in a good way. I am off work today and tomorrow for vacation and normally, I'd just sleep for two days, But I somehow (through the magical meds?) became a productive person and cleaned my house, went clothes shopping (which I usually HATE doing), went to lunch, visited a friend in need and then got a massage. Through...
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miloryan:
Kick ass Jora33! I know that feeling of thinking you just might actually be in a good mood but it seems unfamiliar. Anyway keep it going and thanks for your reply.
schleprock:
Congratulation on feeling better. From what I have been led to believe what you are experiencign is the way most people act all the time. I don't get it either. I figured everyone had to fight to get where they were going.
I would blame your short attention span on your cats rubbing off on you.
Damn, I guess I missed my golden oppurtunity with the pick-up lines. Eyes don't work for me, I am too unobservent to notice them. I have to be wacked with a stick.
I would blame your short attention span on your cats rubbing off on you.
Damn, I guess I missed my golden oppurtunity with the pick-up lines. Eyes don't work for me, I am too unobservent to notice them. I have to be wacked with a stick.
I feel a little better now. After going crazy for hours, I took some more meds and I'm under control now. I'm still bored as hell though. I am in need of distraction!! I want an email-pal. Anyone interested? 
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randomdent:
*hug*
schleprock:
I don't mind if you add me as a friend as long as you don't mind me coming up with really bad pick up lines.
I am feeling very low right now, which puzzles me since these new meds I'm on are supposed to help with my depression. I almost can't bare to be in my own skin right now. Nothing is helping to distract me from this restlessness. I had to vent, and this is where I vent. If anyone has any helpful input, please feel free to tell...
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jora:
Might be a plan, but I'm stuck at work all day.
8_missing_8:
i've no real input i'm afraid, but more than willing to absorb some of your needed venting and where i think i can help, i will.
out of all darkness must come light
out of all darkness must come light
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8_missing_8:
ah the test of :: mortality ::
hanging of the edge of a cliff. i've done that. climbed the beach rocks so high, stretching to get up, then realising you can't stretch to get down.
option? jump into the sea. that rush of air, hitting the water, not knowing what will happen next.
stupid but oh the head rush
hanging of the edge of a cliff. i've done that. climbed the beach rocks so high, stretching to get up, then realising you can't stretch to get down.
option? jump into the sea. that rush of air, hitting the water, not knowing what will happen next.
stupid but oh the head rush
somekindofinsane:
hey babe, so do you have any more examples of your stuff i could read or anything? i love to read other people's work...
Bored, bored, bored! Work is still draining my energy. I really need an actual vacation, not just a few days off for Thanksgiving.
Sigh...
Sigh...
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randomdent:
I would love a vacation right now. I'm working retail and its killing me.
superfly4343:
Happy birthday!
Feeling very, very sad today. Not sure why. Not feeling well again, so maybe that's it. I was depressed all weekend. Oh what fun is the downward spiral. Seriously considering looking into being "tested" for chemical imbalance. Maybe knowing would help me. I don't know. Sigh...
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jora:
No, I didn't get your email... I have to check them all now (I have no idea which one I put as my contact).
I don't drink, or I wouldn't be going this crazy with saddness. I am sober girl.
I don't drink, or I wouldn't be going this crazy with saddness. I am sober girl.
jora:
Ok, got your email and answered you.
how is CA this time of year?