My unfortunate mind

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I see you sitting next to me so quite and diligently

My mind is racing and I pick words that don't make sense to me.

You seem confused and don't think anything of me so you get up

I talk some more but lose control, my thoughts are sporadic and I'm not charismatic and so I try something drastic but my mouth is full of...
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Simple times

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I want to go back to times that are simpler .

To racing toy cars and see who is quicker.

I want to go back to before things were new.

To sitting in class and playing with glue.

I want to go back before hope was dead.

To dreaming a faithful future in my head.

I want to stop fearing my present and future....

Saturday

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While you laugh with friends, I put a gun in my mouth.

While you hug your love ones, I heard the click of an empty chamber.

While you sleep soundly, I have the relief of dodging a bullet.

And while you hide in your shade, I dance in my rain.

I'm single and it has pros and cons

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I've been single for almost a year now and I have some ups and downs.

First is the Pros!

1 I do love the freedom to do what I want, like go to the bar, stay in and relax or take a few extra shifts at work and not have to worry about someone who doesn't want to/wants to do something else.

2 I aslo...
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hanami:
That all makes a lot of sense! Both being single and in a relationship have their pros and cons... I'd definitely say the cuddling is the best bit of a relationship, as great as sex is :')

I need to vent again (I do this a lot)

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So I went on what I thought was a date last night but I was embarrassedly mistaken. This girl asked me out for a beer and she's cute and we get along so I was like awesome! We got a beer and talked for a while, I was making her laugh and we were telling stories about ourselves....

Theeennnnnn her friends came, they were cool...
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joneszy90:
@erable yeah I'll probably be single for a while but I'm ok with that. I would rather wait and find someone special than rush into something not worth it
tbars:
I hope you didn't call this girl back. That is totally rude! My brother used to tell me - don't try to 'just be friends' with guys. They have friends. They don't want a hot friend that they want to fuck :D

If you don't wanna read negative, just keep scrolling

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What does it matter? No one reads this because I'm a dude but I can try. I can't express how pissed, upset, angry and enraged I am. I had a terrible day at work to start off. Woke up at 3am to be at work at 4am and worked until 9pm! That's 17 hours WITH ONE HALF HOUR BREAK!!! working with people who have no...
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lillybelle:
I know what you are going through, here in Brazil, the same thing happens with almost everyone and  just to survive you say yes again and again..... and this is inhumane. I sincerely hope that appear better opportunities for you.... in the meantime take care, keep the focus on good things.
joneszy90:
Thank you @lillybelle sometimes I just get fed up with all the bullshit I have to deal with. 

I little rant on how I feel

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I just started on SG not to long ago and everyone is very nice and I'm happy to be a part of this. But my life right now is in shambles and there's nothing I can do about it. I owe $1200,000 i student loans and this forces me to work 7 days a week at 3 different job and 2 of which I hate...
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wizard0:
Still a crap-ton of money, but a bit more manageable.  Would you be able to take 1 class each semester and keep deferring the loan payments? 
joneszy90:
I actually graduated 2 years ago @wizard0 so there's nothing I can do but pay it