So I fell for a boy.... how does that even happen? I'm at a loss. I can't even figure out what happened exactly. It's been too quick for me to comprehend. I'm thinking that maybe if I write it all out then it will start to make since to me... then again, maybe it won't and then I'll be just as lost as when I started and I'll have wasted all this time to come to no conclusion. He showed up at my job and he flirted with me and then started to leave without ever asking me for my number... I was sitting there like, "What the fuck????" Then he comes back and asks for it in this little nervy way that was so endearing that I couldn't even tease him. He calls me and calls me... but the problem is that I'm not suppose to talk to clients outside work and he here he is calling and I can't explain it to him over the phone and have it not seem like a lie. I'm not a liar mind you... Then he shows up. He just pops up again and wants to know why I haven't called him back or anything. I explain and the two of us come up with a story that I've known him for years so I'm not trying to date a guy I et at work.. and every single day since then I've been with him. I'm caught up on this boy and we never even leave the house. He's what I never knew I always wanted in my life and I don't know how to tell him this in any way that makes since... and I'm sitting here and I still don't know what he has on me. It's like I can honestly feel him before he calls or shows up. It's this strange connection that just doesn't make sense to me. I'm 22 and I have never had butterflies over a guy before now. Damn. What do I do with this????? Boys! UGH!
My quote of the day:
Love is such a fleeting thing, it lasts as long as pain. Moments. If I know this to be true then why do I want him to love me with such a desperate need?
My quote of the day:
Love is such a fleeting thing, it lasts as long as pain. Moments. If I know this to be true then why do I want him to love me with such a desperate need?
bugd:
Enjoy the ride! It's better to have loved and lost...